Ten Signs That Your True Self is Waking Up
By Cathy Eck
This article is about using processes that were once labeled initiation (or letting go of all beliefs and belief systems to achieve mental and emotional freedom). It is not the same as other articles with similar titles that refer to walking a spiritual path, enlightenment, or ascension. So read carefully, and you might discover that what you’ve always wanted, but didn’t realize you wanted it, was FREEDOM!
Spiritual Awakening or True Self Remembering?
Many people around the world are talking about spiritual awakening; people are seeking in great numbers. Today, there are many different options for the seeker that involve learning, changing their mind, taking on new beliefs, and doing practices. There was another path that has been lost; this path was about remembering our True Self–becoming who we truly are. It was called initiation. The difference is in the desired end result. Spiritual awakening is about becoming enlightened or spiritual by gathering more knowledge and beliefs. Initiation is about mental and emotional freedom. In initiation, we let go of beliefs and knowledge that we don’t need. Free people are enlightened. Enlightened people are not necessarily free. Here’s why. You were born spiritual and enlightened. You cover up that natural spirituality by accepting belief systems and knowledge that you don’t need. So you can’t get back to who you are, a spiritual being with no beliefs or the True Self, by learning or adding on more information and beliefs. You can’t raise your vibration if your thinking is false no matter how much you practice or eat healthy. Your vibration is caused by your thinking and beliefs. If you put true information into your mind through learning, you have added to the false self. Memorized truth is false information…knowledge. It is not pure wisdom. In doing this, people create what I call a clone of the True Self. It sounds and looks like a True Self, but it is not a True Self because it is bothered by others, fearful, and judgmental. Often this is described as super sensitivity; sadly, it’s making many people chronically sick. That clone of the True Self does not want us to get free. It wants to rule our body and life. The clone false self projects the old beliefs that it no longer says it believes outward on to others. The clone then tells us that others are so negative and we have to hide from them, we must practice harder, and we must save the world from the apocalypse. Initiation is about fully being in the world, enjoying it, and not believing that which is false. It is about reigniting our natural discrimination. We become calm and quiet-minded beings; but not because we do practices or fix our thinking to sound truthful. We simply aren’t affected by the thinking and beliefs of others because we know it is false.
The abundance of teachers of all things spiritual has caused a lot of confusion. In fact, if you choose the path of initiation, you will have to let go of everything you learned from self-help, New Age, and religion. Those teachings create a false spiritual aspect in our mind (the clone); it’s huge trap to freedom. Those teachings are belief systems relabeled the truth; and your real True Self is void of beliefs. In short, you don’t need to learn the truth. You were born with it inside. As you let go, you find that truth, but it is in your OWN words. Your truth is your freedom, wisdom, and creativity; and it harmonizes and connects with everyone else’s True Self.
When I named this article, I used spiritual awakening in the title. That caused confusion; but if I change the URL now, it will alter all the links I have on my websites. So I want to be clear at the start of this article that I’m not condoning all those spiritual paths that others speak of. As far as I’m concerned they are false. I’m saying that if you feel the symptoms that I describe, it may very well be caused by your spiritual path. Your True Self is screaming to you to drop it because your teacher, preacher, guru, or healer is building your false self, not eliminating it. That causes emotions.
The ancient initiates saw everything as mind. They didn’t have the concept of spirit. But they had the view that part of our mind is hard wired. You can’t alter it. It’s perfect. It is the part of our minds that are all ONE. They called that the True Self. The idea behind initiation was that you let go of all the beliefs that caused you to get stuck within the illusion (the reality that is created from beliefs); then you got free. You came back to who you were initially (when you were born). You were not born with religious, cultural, psychological beliefs, or knowledge. You learned all that. So often when people feel the symptoms that I describe below, they go seeking. They look for teachers and gurus. They do practices and techniques. They try to raise their vibration. They say affirmations. None of those things will get you free. I share why on other posts on this blog and on my other blog No Labels, No Lies.
Unlike the idea that many have about the soul, the True Self remains perfect. You can’t screw it up or eliminate it. But you can cover it up with a false self. So in the mind of the ancient initiates, spiritual awakening would be more like remembering who you are. I say remembering, not awakening, because your spirit has always been awake. It didn’t fall, die, or disappear. It didn’t fall asleep, so it doesn’t need to wake up. You just covered it up with beliefs, teachings, and false reasoning.
The reason that I wrote this blog and http://nolablesnolies.com is to help people through this difficult phase of life. Most techniques and explanations out there today produce fear, frustration, and suffering. They don’t fix it. Often they just move problems or suffering from one place in our body or lives to another. What many believe to be a spiritual calling is actually a call to drop the false self. No one has ever told us how to do that. I do on my blogs. But let me be clear. All that seeking you did only added to your false self. You have not done anything to get free until you start to let go of beliefs. At that time, you step on a new path not a continuation of your spiritual path. That can be hard to hear. People often want to tell me about their spiritual journey, but they are here because their spiritual journey hasn’t gotten them what they really want–freedom. So accepting that sad fact, and dropping all those practices, beliefs, and ceremonies, helps to eliminate many of the symptoms I describe below. It helps you see that letting go does work and is what you wanted all along. Then you just stay with it until you remember who you truly are.
Many people today look at the civilized world, produced by the wealthy élite, and know that it’s all a bunch of lies (the illusion). They see holes in the logic of politics, religion, and education. But sadly, people are not seeing that the spiritual teachers and motivational speakers are just teaching religion with new words. You can’t learn who you are from another person. You have to excavate it in yourself. You have to remove the beliefs that cover it, not float above it in meditation or other practices. Your emotions are your friend in initiation; you need them. So you don’t want to do things like EFT or releasing your emotions. You won’t find the causal beliefs that way. Many truly kind and compassionate people are falling for the same old traps all over again because once you are in the illusion, the law of attraction pulls you to more of the same kind of leader. That’s why I teach you how to become your own leader. That’s the way out.
We see the collective illusion that we’ve been taught to see, and it looks real. It is real, but it isn’t true. It’s just an illusion — a bunch of commonly held beliefs stored in our false mind. And if we let go of our OWN false mind, we won’t see that illusion anymore; or if we do see it, we won’t be bothered by it. Too often people get angry at the illusion, fight it, and protest it instead of letting go. That doesn’t get us to freedom. There is no need to fight something unreal; you just have to stop paying attention to it so it can disappear.
We just want to be our SELVES!
People in the process of remembering who they are sometimes hear a friendly, unconditionally loving voice that says, “Don’t listen to other people. Follow me. Do your own thing. Listen to your heart.” Call it their passion or call it their True Self, as I do; it’s a much more pleasant voice to honor. It’s your voice. People soon realize that this voice feels good; and that old, critical and punishing voice feels terrible. Let me be clear. This is an inner voice; it’s not the memorized voice of a teacher to follow.
The Big Psychological Reversal
Thousands of years ago, the Lords, Priests, and Kings reversed our psychological perspective for their own benefit. Originally, we were True Selves that followed our heart, our joy, and our passion. Staying on our own path and achieving our destiny was easy.
But then things changed. Most myths and legends say that some people became power-hungry. They wanted others to serve them and their needs. Or perhaps they wanted to make life a bit more interesting and challenging. The reason this psychological reversal occurred is unclear. But there is no question that it actually occurred.
Humans were slowly conditioned through stories and laws to believe that thoughts which felt bad were true; and thoughts that felt good and calm were imaginary or temptations to trick us. This enabled the élite, who created this giant web of lies, to get rich, powerful, and have plenty of slaves to fulfill their needs.
People are Catching On
This is such a wonderful time. The false matrix or illusion, which held everyone bound in slavery, is losing its power; and those who support it are being exposed. People now question the leaders who sound great but feel terrible. They question false authority and choose to ignore it. As more and more people catch this wave of truth, unconditional love, and freedom, we can all move toward paradise on earth very quickly if people let go of the old beliefs. And therein lies the problem. People don’t know how to let go of their old beliefs. Their minds are at war between the old, and very popular, false self and the True Self. They aren’t sure what is True and what is false. And too many channels and New Age teachers are offering reasons that aren’t correct or helpful. Techniques that get us to see the facade don’t get us out of it.
Even worse, eastern teachings have flooded the western world. They speak about the good, the positive, and the true. They encode their beliefs into practices and rituals. And they project the bad, the negative, and the false on to others who don’t do the practices or think the good thoughts. It is just another version of the religious notion of good and evil. When we put the truth from others in our mind, we create a false positive self (the clone).
False Labels and Lies
Sadly, many of the signs of remembering our True Self and needing to let go of the false self have been labeled as problems or diseases; this causes us to get trapped in the false world again and again. We think there is something wrong when there is actually the prospect of something right. But we have to know how to read the signals.
So here are a few signs of remembering our True Self that are often mislabeled as flaws or problems. You don’t need to have them all (or any for that matter), so don’t create those you don’t have. If you have noticed any of these errors in your mind, simply let them go when they arise by noticing the thoughts don’t feel good and reminding yourself that they are not true. If you need help letting go, see my other blog, No Labels, No Lies. I recommend starting with the earliest posts and moving forward in time.
False notions always come with emotion, usually lots of it. And we’ve often numbed ourselves to emotions in the past. We did this because we felt trapped; and when in prison, it is more pleasant to numb yourself than to feel emotional pain. Many of us created positive, happy or spiritual personalities to mask our pain. Others simply wallowed in the sadness and hoped for a little attention. We must be willing to feel again to know true from false. We must be willing to call our mind on its games and payoffs and stop giving them energy.
1. People who once sounded intelligent or spiritual now sound ridiculous.
I was recently on a cruise ship where a Rabbi provided a daily, religious service. He spoke about the story of Noah’s ark. He never once offered a metaphorical interpretation or even a lesson. He told it as real proof and reason to fear the end times, God hates us, story. I almost started to laugh. He really took that story seriously. He really thought that animals marched on the ark two by two. He was an adult, a mature man, who never questioned the logic of the story. He sounded like a child. And people applauded his sermon. They didn’t question his words because he was an authority.
How do I know that story is not true? I could say it is illogical to think that one man could get two of every species of animals on an ark. I couldn’t even get my dog and my cat in the same room most of the time. But logic can lie. A better reason is that the notion that God would wipe out his own human children doesn’t feel good. I’ve learned that when our emotions roar we are thinking or hearing a belief, not the truth. We have to catch that a psychological reversal that was implanted into our mind earlier in life is running.
One of the tricks that the old patriarchal Lords used to subdue the masses was to tell a story with a hero who followed their rules. The people focused on the hero consciously while their unconscious took in the leader’s self-centered intention of the story, which was to program the people to think they were powerless mortals. The story was designed to make people fear God’s wrath. It sent an unconscious message that God was vengeful and powerful; and we had better obey like Noah. Once we accepted a story as true, we begin to see proof of it. Our world reflects what we believe to be true until we let our beliefs go. So the story takes on a life of its own. We no longer challenge its validity.
People point to the Bible as the word of God as proof for the stories. Much of the Bible was written by initiates, and they didn’t perceive the world like people do today (but we’ll leave that for another article). The truth is that our concept of God fell, not humans. S/he went from being a pure creator to a punishing judgmental male jerk (a projection of the leaders of the time).
2. You feel constant emotion around other people.
This is a very confusing symptom. People often believe they are depressed, bipolar, or going insane. They also often think the emotions are coming from others. They usually aren’t. The emotions are caused by believing what others are saying; and the others aren’t speaking truthfully. We should just ignore them. We should be able to tell them that their words are not true. But we developed this habit as children of believing what others say. This frequently gets worse when people start listening to channels and spiritual teachers. They say things that sound true, but their words are mixed with falsehood. Our mind takes in more and more false. Our emotions signal that this is happening. But no one understands what is causing the emotions. They label them.
The false self wants desperately to stay alive; so it never tells the truth. The truth sets us free. It is contrary to freedom. Our false self is personal; it was not meant to be connected to others. However, we acquired it from others so we created false connections of shared beliefs. When we meet others with the same false beliefs, we feel related and safe. But this is a false relationship. Our True Self doesn’t connect with others around beliefs; in fact, you can’t break a true Self connection. You can only mask it with false-self relating. Thus unconditional love never dies; but romance fades over time.
Let’s say that you shared a cultural belief or tradition with your family. Now you start challenging your own mind and letting go of false beliefs. You recognize that this tradition was only a belief. You feel disconnected from your family. You still have a True-Self connection, but the false-self connection is now broken. That can feel like a loss although it is really a gain.
3. The body demonstrates the symptoms of all the illnesses we once believed were real.
This is a good one. Most of us connected our false mind to our body. We took in lots of knowledge that we acquired from others about health, food, disease, exercise, etc. and gave the knowledge power over our body. The True Self manages the body perfectly, but not if it isn’t in charge.
Our false mind holds beliefs about diseases, and we are sure they are real. If we meet the conditions for the diseases we hold in mind, we get them. We were taught about diseases from authorities who had conviction that they were real.
We are naturally healthy; only a false self can get a disease. To get free of the disease mindset, we have to face all of our beliefs and let them go. So our body will show us what we believe. Our job is to recognize the belief, and let it go.
This is tricky. If we are working as a healer, we might say we believe in health. But then what are we treating? In my work, I have to let go of the belief that people are not free or else I keep them stuck. If they bring up a lie, I don’t go into a protocol to fix the lie. I simply recognize the lie as a lie/belief and let it go in my mind. That gives them the freedom to do the same. In truth, we can only heal ourselves. But often the beliefs of others imposed on us can make that healing difficult.
When disease symptoms first arose within my body, I thought I was being punished by the mean God in the sky. I could not find the cause. Sometimes my body was giving me a specific metaphorical message; but more often I had just accepted a belief in the disease or punishment from another. We have to remember that doctors and healers don’t have an income if we are well. They have little motivation to see us as perfect. Once we see this, we stop asking them to keep us healthy. They can’t do it because they hold in mind a huge catalog of things that go wrong with bodies. They can’t imagine a person who is perfectly healthy; so don’t ask them to do so.
4. We feel like we don’t belong.
We go to the doctor and feel like we don’t belong. We don’t. We go to church and feel like we don’t belong. We don’t. We take a class and find the information doesn’t feel good. These were all places that we previously went to feel safe or included. They’re hang outs for false selves. The false self hates being alone. It wants to be among like-minded people.
Oh we definitely DO belong in the world. The world was designed for the True Self, not the false self. But the True Self doesn’t feel lonely. It’s connected to everyone unconditionally. If we feel lonely, the false self is talking. Let whatever it is saying go.
It’s the false self that doesn’t belong. Often it is very hard to remember that when we see how well the world accommodates false selves.
5. We can no longer work for the man.
We finally quit that secure job, and our family and friends lose it. They’re sure we’ll be homeless; and if we share our family and friend’s beliefs, we will be.
We’ve lost our ability to play the master-slave game. That is a cause for celebration. But it often doesn’t feel like a celebration if we’re surrounded by people who remind us that our future home will be the sidewalk on Main Street. Don’t worry. They are just showing us some of our fears that we still unconsciously believe. Notice that none of the things they say feel good. so they are not true. A belief will leave when you no longer believe it. It needs your attention to thrive.
How do you know they are lying or speaking from the false self? After all, they think they have your best interests in mind. People only speak what they believe. The truth is in everyone. It needs no expression. You know untrue statements because they don’t feel good…they generate emotion. Our emotions show us what is true and what is false. And if we let go of all the false thoughts, eventually we are left with nothing but truth. The truth was always there; it was just covered by a big pile of manure. Everyone has something true that they can do that can contribute and will pay their bills. It won’t feel like work. You won’t find it by taking personality tests or doing therapy. You find it by letting go and unveiling your True Self.
Our desires show up and pull us forward so that we can see our beliefs and let them go. But letting go takes time, so we might need to have what I refer to as a bridge job that is easy and allows us to let go until we fully remember our Self. We are not meant to struggle to fulfill our dreams. We are not meant to work to make another rich. It is not virtuous to work hard in a job we hate. Our work was meant to be a labor of love, and we cannot be happy until we achieve that.
6. We lose our empathy.
This sign of remembering confused and bothered me so much. I thought I was becoming a bad person. I thought I was turning into a robot without emotion. I thought I had Asperger’s syndrome. But when we awaken, we recognize that our emotions are pointing to our OWN thoughts only. To emote about another’s thoughts is like feeding your friend because you are hungry. It’s stupid. As we let go, we learn to replace empathy with compassion.
Compassion means that when you are sitting before me flushing your shit all over me, I recognize that it’s not true. I don’t believe a word you say. I may even remind you that you are believing lies and not being true to your authentic Self. I don’t agree with you. I don’t pick you up or sympathize. I merely help you discriminate. I help you to return to your own True Self where there are no problems. The best example of this is Jesus. He never believed another’s lies, and that’s why he could support another in healing anything. He was not sympathetic, he was compassionate.
We live in a world where we feel sorry for others, and then we get approval for being sympathetic. We fish for others, and they never learn to fish. People learn to fish when we tell them how to fish and trust them to do it. Sympathy never freed anyone; in fact, it keeps the person who gives it and the one who receives it in the prison of the false self.
7. You feel like you have no purpose.
All those fake purposes of serving others lose their luster. You can’t imagine doing the things that you used to do. You feel the need to do something but don’t know what to do. Often, you have no motivation to do much except heal your own mind.
That is great news. That is your purpose. Jesus said it well. “Find ye first the kingdom of heaven and all else will be added unto you.”
You’re bored with the old world of good and evil; you’re sick and tired of being sick and tired. You don’t want to win and you don’t want to lose. You think hard work is stupid. And you look like a complete ass to the rest of the world. You look lazy as you find no motivation to work hard anymore.
Congratulations, you’re True Self is screaming. Don’t worry about your purpose or try to explain yourself to anyone. Just keep letting go of the beliefs that pollute your mind or tell you what you should do. Don’t take on new beliefs. If you are doing spiritual practices, take a break. A few months of letting go, and you’ll see they were causing or contributing to your apathy. Freedom is not believing anything. We just know what we know.
8. You can’t stand small talk anymore.
Remember all those parties that were so fun where you played silly games and talked about your problems for hours. Those don’t cut it anymore. When someone says, “How are you?” you know that they don’t care. When they ask you what you do, you have no frickin’ idea how to explain it without being judged.
But there is another New Age/self help confusion that is part of this. People started to think that having a deep or intimate conversation was talking about their beliefs or processing with each other. That’s just a big load of crap. It’s perpetuates our problems. We don’t fix anything by talking about them. Letting go isn’t about looking for reasons. We eliminate our problems when we let go of the causal beliefs. To do that you have to follow your emotions and listen.
9. You run like hell from religious people.
Once you wake up, you can see religion correctly. Religion must serve the True Self, not the other way around. Once awake, you see the true meaning of the Holy books. I can assure you that the masses are not even close. But like I said, I include the spiritual seekers and teachers in this same group. The new Holy books are no different than the old Holy books.
As long as others are trying to save you, convert you, or fix you, you still believe what they are saying unconsciously. I know that’s hard to hear if you are recovering from some religion that you believe you left. But old religious beliefs tend to get suppressed. So we project them on the outside world. If we are still afraid of our zealous friends, we need to dissect our own mind. If you clean up your mind, they won’t bother you anymore. You’ll just say, “I don’t believe you.”
When you are in the midst of remembering your True Self, you’ve at least questioned the punishing, angry, jealous God story. But do you completely know it’s not true? This is the key. You can’t be free until you absolutely know that story is a lie. And you don’t know it’s a lie until you have completely reclaimed your sense of discrimination.
You know that it’s a lie, when you have remembered that any idea that generates emotion is a lie, a mere belief. Until you have completely removed that belief, you will attract people who will give you one more rendition of the “saved by Jesus” dance.
I had this one big time. I used to hide from the religious zealots of the world. Then I got clear, and now I am direct and honest with them. I used to feel that I had to prove my spiritual worth to them. Now I ask them to prove their religion to me.
I knew that the punishing God story was a lie when one day I realized that I would never, ever do or think the things that Jehovah did; therefore, he was less than me, not more. He was a false God, a god of the illusion (a projection of Moses’ false self). He is no more real than Santa Claus.
10. People see their own reflection in you.
This is the sign of remembering the True Self that often sends people right back into the illusion because it’s how we got programmed in the beginning from our parents and other authority figures. People in the illusion, who live from the false self, can’t see the past the illusion to freedom. They can only see their own filter of the world. So they look at you and can’t see you; they see their old judgments of you.
This created so much pain for me. When I was letting go at a rapid speed, I was married to a man who could only see his mother in me. I knew that I was not his mother, but he didn’t. We had conversations that made no sense. He’d even see physical issues in me that did not exist but had existed in his mother. When I believed him, I felt crazy. When I didn’t believe him, he’d say I was crazy. It was simply time to get out. My belief that we were married (marriage is a false self ceremony created by man) allowed this false relationship to continue.
Our parents often play this same role when they don’t see our new heart-centered ways. We are labeled lazy or crazy. This is the hardest part of the journey because we’re facing our handlers from the past, the people who installed our false self into our minds. They created us in their preferred image and likeness, and they don’t like when we reject their creation. But without this step, we cannot be free.
The true world is 180 degrees from the false illusion. But they are not opposites like black and white. The false world is truly an illusion; it’s real but not true. The true world is perfect and real and true. You can’t eliminate it or destroy it. So problems in the illusion are really symptoms of believing the false self. If we let go of the belief that caused them, they will disappear. We have to pay attention because often the old signs that we followed were directing us down the path to hell, not leading us to the promised land. We have to see that those old signs and beliefs made our life worse, not better.
The mind can trick us into thinking the illusion of pain and suffering is real. Each time it gets us to believe the old lies, it temporarily pulls us back into its false world. But once we get a glimpse of truth and freedom, that old illusion feels really bad. Allow that bad feeling to push you harder toward freedom. Use it as a reminder to let go. Trust that your emotions are exposing the lies and beliefs in your mind, and let them go quickly. You don’t need to know the reason for things happening as they do. You just need to eliminate the cause; then it can never happen again.
Stay with it. Often when the world seems the most dark and things look hopeless, if we just let go of one more lie, a level of clarity appears; and we will see some validation that reminds us that we are headed in the right direction. We gas up the car and keep driving. We’ll be there soon.
Another post related to this one is: Thirteen Signs You’re Freedom Bound!