Ten Signs That Your True Self is Waking Up
By Cathy Eck
Spiritual Awakening or True Self Remembering?
Many people around the world are in the process of what’s often called spiritual awakening; or as the ancient initiates called it, remembering their True Self. The ancient initiates saw everything as mind. They didn’t have the concept of spirit. But they had the view that part of our mind is hard wired. You can’t alter it. It’s perfect.
Unlike the idea that many have about the soul, this part of our mind stays perfect. You can’t screw it up. But you can cover it up with a false self. So in the mind of the ancient initiates, spiritual awakening would be more like remembering who you are. I say remembering, not awakening, because your spirit has always been awake. It didn’t fall, die, or disappear. It didn’t fall asleep, so it doesn’t need to wake up. You just covered it up with beliefs and false reasoning. Now you’re questioning those lies.
The reason that I wrote this blog and http://nolablesnolies.com is to help people through this difficult phase of life. Most techniques and explanations out there today produce fear, frustration, and suffering. They don’t help one get to their true goal of mental and emotional freedom because they think the spirit is awakening, when really we’re being called to drop the false self. No one has ever told us how to do that.
When this happens, we look at the civilized world, produced by the wealthy élite, and we just know that it’s all a bunch of lies. We see holes in the logic of politics, religion, and education. We listen to the news and recognize the bias with which it’s presented. We’re tired of superficial conversations and people with socially proper masks. We see the collective illusion that we’ve been taught to see, and it looks real. It is real, but it isn’t true. It’s just an illusion — a bunch of commonly held beliefs stored in our false mind. And if we let it go of our OWN false mind, we won’t see that illusion anymore; or if we do see it, we won’t be bothered by it. Too often people get angry at the illusion, fight it, and protest it instead of letting go. That doesn’t get us to freedom. There is no need to fight something unreal; you just have to stop paying attention to it so it can disappear.
We just want to be our SELVES!
People in the process of remember who they are hear a friendly, unconditionally loving voice that says, “Don’t listen to other people. Follow me. Do your own thing. Listen to your heart.” Call it their passion or call it their True Self, as I do; it’s a much more pleasant voice to honor. People soon realize that this voice feels good; and that old, critical and punishing voice feels terrible.
The Big Psychological Reversal
Thousands of years ago, the Lords, Priests, and Kings reversed our psychological perspective for their own benefit. Originally, we were True Selves that followed our heart, our joy, and our passion. Staying on our own path and achieving our destiny was easy.
But then things changed. Most myths and legends say that some people became power-hungry. They wanted others to serve them and their needs. Or perhaps they wanted to make life a bit more interesting and challenging. The reason this psychological reversal occurred is unclear. But there is no question that it actually occurred.
Humans were slowly conditioned through stories and laws to believe that thoughts which felt bad were true; and thoughts that felt good and calm were imaginary or temptations to trick us. This enabled the élite, who created this giant web of lies, to get rich, powerful, and have plenty of slaves to fulfill their needs. They didn’t believe their own lies. But masses of people believed their lies and lived small, unfulfilled lives. Sadly, most of the population still believes these same lies and still accepts beliefs that don’t feel good without even a hint of discrimination.
People are Catching On
This is such a wonderful time. The false matrix or illusion, which held everyone bound in slavery, is losing its power; and those who support it are being exposed. People now question the leaders who sound great but feel terrible. They question false authority and choose to ignore it. As more and more people catch this wave of truth, unconditional love, and freedom, we can all move toward paradise on earth very quickly if people let go of the old beliefs. And therein lies the problem. People don’t know how to let go of their old beliefs. Their minds are at war between the old false and the True. They aren’t sure what is True and what is false. And too many channels and New Age teachers are offering reasons that aren’t correct or helpful. Techniques that got us to see the facade don’t get us out of it.
Even worse, eastern teachings have flooded the western world. They speak about the good, the positive, and the true. They encode their beliefs into practices and rituals. And they project the bad, the negative, and the false on to others who don’t do the practices or think the good thoughts. It is just another version of the religious notion of good and evil. When we put the truth from others in our mind, we create a false positive self. You see, we already know the truth. We came hard wired with it. We need to expose our truth, not learn or memorize it.
After marinating in eastern or New Age/self help teachings, we think we are our True Selves when we aren’t. We fall into a great deception. The way to know if you have been tricked in this way is that you feel good inside of yourself, and often think positive good thoughts when alone or meditating. But you see a horrible world that seems to be coming at you. You often feel so sensitive and want to stay away from others. But these are just the projected aspect of the beliefs (truth from a teacher or guru) coming back at you like a boomerang. We must let that projection go by recognizing it’s untrue. In fact, we have to let the truth teachings go too. Then we are left with our True Self. It’s strange when we do this. We think we need all that crap in our minds.
As I learned how to discriminate between the different voices in my mind, I’ve discovered many of the traps and tricks that the false mind uses to keep us enslaved. Once we recognize these traps, we no longer fall for them. You realize they are tricks when you let them know that you know they are not true, and they eventually yield. The True Self is always more powerful than beliefs or lies.
False Labels and Lies
Sadly, many of the signs of remembering our True Self and needing to let go of the false self have been labeled as problems or diseases; this causes us to get trapped in the false world again and again. We think there is something wrong when there is actually something right.
So here are a few signs of remembering our True Self that are often mislabeled as flaws or problems. You don’t need to have them all (or any for that matter), so don’t create those you don’t have. If you have noticed any of these errors in your mind, simply let them go when they arise by noticing the thoughts don’t feel good and reminding yourself that they are not true. If you need help letting go, see my other blog, No Labels, No Lies. I recommend starting with the earliest posts and moving forward in time.
False notions always come with emotion, usually lots of it. And we’ve often numbed ourselves to emotions in the past. We did this because we felt trapped; and when in prison, it is more pleasant to numb yourself than to feel emotional pain. Many of us created positive, happy personalities to mask our pain. Others simply wallowed in the sadness and hoped for a little attention. We must be willing to feel again to know true from false. We must be willing to call our mind on its games and payoffs and stop giving them energy.
1. People who once sounded intelligent or spiritual now sound ridiculous.
I was recently on a cruise ship where a Rabbi provided a daily, religious service. He spoke about the story of Noah’s ark. He never once offered a metaphorical interpretation or even a lesson. He told it as real proof and reason to fear the end times, God hates us, story. I almost started to laugh. He really took that story seriously. He really thought that animals marched on the ark two by two. He was an adult, a mature man, who never questioned the logic of the story. He sounded like a child. And people applauded his sermon. They didn’t question his words because he was an authority.
How do I know that story is not true? I could say it is illogical to think that one man could get two of every species of animals on an ark. I couldn’t even get my dog and my cat in the same room most of the time. But logic can lie. A better reason is that the notion that God would wipe out his own human children doesn’t feel good. I’ve learned that when our emotions roar we are thinking or hearing a belief, not the truth. We have to catch that a psychological reversal that was implanted into our mind earlier in life is running.
One of the tricks that the old patriarchal Lords used to subdue the masses was to tell a story with a hero who followed their rules. The people focused on the hero consciously while their unconscious took in the true intention of the story, which was to program the people to think they were powerless mortals. The story was designed to make people fear God’s wrath. It sent an unconscious message that God was vengeful and powerful; and we had better obey like Noah. Once we accepted a story as true, we begin to see proof of it. Our world reflects what we believe to be true until we let our beliefs go. So the story takes on a life of its own. We no longer challenge its validity.
People point to the Bible as the word of God as proof for the stories. The Bible was written by initiates, and they didn’t perceive the world like people do today (but we’ll leave that for another article). The truth is that our concept of God fell, not humans. S/he went from being a creator to a punishing judgmental male jerk (a projection of the leaders of the time).
Ancient writers held a different understanding of the word God. It originally meant ancestors or leaders. The word Lord was similar. God became associated with punishing, jealous, angry dictators who were a far cry from the unconditional loving perfection of what the indigenous ancient people saw as the Great Spirit, Creator, or the initiates called the Grand Architect.
2. You feel constant emotion around other people.
This is a very confusing symptom. People often believe they are depressed, bipolar, or going insane. They also often think the emotions are coming from others. They usually aren’t. The emotions are caused by believing what others are saying; and the others aren’t speaking truthfully. We should just ignore them. But we developed this habit as children.
The false self, wanting to stay alive; so it never tells the truth. Our false self is personal; it was not meant to be connected to others. However, we acquire it from others so we create false connections like cords that feel like relationship but are really just shared beliefs. When we meet others with the same false beliefs, we feel related and safe. But this is a false relationship. Our True Self doesn’t connect with others around beliefs; in fact, you can’t break a true Self connection. You can only mask it with false self relating. Thus unconditional love never dies; but romance fades over time.
Let’s say that you shared a cultural belief or tradition with your family. Now you start challenging your own mind and letting go of false beliefs. You recognize that this tradition was only a belief. You feel disconnected from your family. You still have a True-Self connection, but the false-self connection is now broken. That can feel like a loss although it is really a gain.
3. The body demonstrates the symptoms of all the illnesses we once believed were real.
This is a good one. Most of us connected our false mind to our body. We took knowledge that we acquired from others about health, food, disease, exercise, etc. and gave the knowledge power over our body. The True Self manages the body perfectly, but not if it isn’t in charge.
Our false mind holds beliefs about diseases, and we are sure they are real. If we meet the conditions for the diseases we hold in mind, we get them. We were taught about diseases from authorities who had conviction that they were real.
We are naturally healthy; only a false self can get a disease. To get free of the disease mindset, we have to face all of our beliefs and let them go. So our body will show us what we believe. Our job is to recognize the belief, and let it go.
This is tricky. If we are working as a healer, we might say we believe in health. But then what are we treating? In my work, I have to let go of the belief that people are not free or else I keep them stuck. If they bring up a lie, I don’t go into a protocol to fix the lie. I simply recognize the lie as a lie/belief and let it go in my mind. That gives them the freedom to do the same. In truth, we can only heal ourselves. But often the beliefs of others imposed on us can make that healing difficult.
When disease symptoms first arose within my body, I thought I was being punished by the mean God in the sky. I could not find the cause. Sometimes my body was giving me a specific message; but more often I had just accepted a belief in the disease or punishment from another. We have to remember that doctors and healers don’t have an income if we are well. They have little motivation to see us as perfect. Once we see this, we stop asking them to keep us healthy. They can’t do it because they hold in mind a huge catalog of things that go wrong with bodies. They can’t imagine a person who is perfectly healthy; so don’t ask them to do so.
4. We feel like we don’t belong.
We go to the doctor and feel like we don’t belong. We don’t. We go to church and feel like we don’t belong. We don’t. We take a class and find the information doesn’t feel good. These were all places that we previously went to feel safe or included. They’re hang outs for false selves. The false self hates being alone. It wants to be among like-minded people.
Oh we definitely DO belong in the world. The world was designed for the True Self, not the false self. But the True Self doesn’t feel lonely. It’s connected to everyone unconditionally.
It’s the false self that doesn’t belong. Often it is very hard to remember that when we see how well the world accommodates false selves.
5. We can no longer work for the man.
We finally quit that secure job, and our family and friends lose it. They’re sure we’ll be homeless; and if we share our family and friend’s beliefs, we will be.
We’ve lost our ability to play the master-slave game. That is a cause for celebration. But it often doesn’t feel like a celebration if we’re surrounded by people who remind us that our future home will be the sidewalk on Main Street. Don’t worry. They are just showing us some of our fears that we still unconsciously believe. Notice that none of the things they say feel good. so they are not true. A belief will leave when you no longer believe it. It needs your attention to thrive.
How do you know they are lying or speaking from the false self? After all, they think they have your best interests in mind. People only speak what they believe. The truth is in everyone. It needs no expression. You know untrue statements because they don’t feel good…they generate emotion. Our emotions show us what is true and what is false. And if we let go of all the false thoughts, eventually we are left with nothing but truth. The truth was always there; it was just covered by a big pile of manure.
Our desires show up and pull us forward so that we can see our beliefs and let them go. We are not meant to struggle to fulfill our dreams. We are not meant to work to make another rich. It is not virtuous to work hard in a job we hate. Our work was meant to be a labor of love, and we cannot be happy until we achieve that.
6. We lose our empathy.
This sign of remembering confused and bothered me so much. I thought I was becoming a bad person. I thought I was turning into a robot without emotion. I thought I had Asperger’s syndrome. But when we awaken, we recognize that our emotions are pointing to our thoughts only. To emote about another’s thoughts is like feeding your friend because you are hungry. It’s stupid. As we let go, we learn to replace empathy with compassion.
Compassion means that when you are sitting before me flushing your shit all over me, I recognize that it’s not true. I don’t believe a word you say. I may even remind you that you are believing lies and not being true to your authentic Self. I don’t agree with you. I don’t pick you up or sympathize. I merely help you discriminate. I help you to return to your own True Self where there are no problems. The best example of this is Jesus. He never believed another’s lies, and that’s why he could heal anything. He was not sympathetic, he was compassionate.
We live in a world where we feel sorry for others, and then we get approval for being sympathetic. We fish for others, and they never learn to fish. People learn to fish when we tell them how to fish and trust them to do it. Sympathy never frees anyone; in fact, it keeps the person who gives it and the one who receives it in the prison of the false self.
7. You feel like you have no purpose.
All those fake purposes of serving others lose their luster. You can’t imagine doing the things that you used to do. You feel the need to do something but don’t know what to do. Often, you have no motivation to do much except heal your own mind.
That is great news. That is your purpose. Jesus said it well. “Find ye first the kingdom of heaven and all else will be added unto you.”
You’re bored with the old world of good and evil; you’re sick and tired of being sick and tired. You think hard work is stupid. And you look like a complete ass to the rest of the world. You look lazy as you find no motivation to work hard anymore.
Congratulations, you’re True Self is screaming. Don’t worry about your purpose or try to explain yourself to anyone. Just keep letting go of the beliefs that pollute your mind or tell you what you should do. Don’t take on new beliefs. That’s a big trap for many. Freedom is not believing anything. We just know.
8. You can’t stand small talk anymore.
Remember all those parties that were so fun where you played silly games and talked about your problems for hours. Those don’t cut it anymore. When someone says, “How are you?” you know that they don’t care. When they ask you what you do, you have no frickin’ idea how to explain it without being judged.
So here is how to handle this situation. Take control of your conversations. Talk about what you love or desire. The person will either find you enjoyable or run for the hills. Either way, you don’t have to waste time in small talk.
9. You run like hell from religious people.
Once you wake up, you can see religion correctly. Religion must serve the True Self, not the other way around. Once awake, you see the true meaning of the Holy books. I can assure you that the masses are not even close.
As long as others are trying to save you, convert you, or fix you, you still believe what they are saying unconsciously. I know that’s hard to hear if you are recovering from some religion that you believe you left. But old religious beliefs tend to get suppressed. So we project them on the outside world. If we are still afraid of our zealous friends, we need to dissect our own mind.
When you are in the midst of remembering your True Self, you’ve at least questioned the punishing, angry, jealous God story. But do you completely know it’s not true? This is the key. You can’t be free until you absolutely know that story is a lie. And you don’t know it’s a lie until you have completely reclaimed your sense of discrimination.
You know that it’s a lie, when you have remembered that any idea that feels bad is a lie, a mere belief. Until you have completely removed that belief, you will attract people who will give you one more rendition of the “saved by Jesus” dance.
I had this one big time. I used to hide from the religious zealots of the world. Then I got clear, and now I am direct and honest with them. I used to feel that I had to prove my spiritual worth to them. Now I ask them to prove their religion to me.
I knew that the punishing God story was a lie when one day I realized that I would never, ever do or think the things that Jehovah did; therefore, he was less than me, not more. He was a false God, a god of the illusion (a projection of Moses’ false self). He is no more real than Santa Claus.
10. People see their own reflection in you.
This is the sign of remembering the True Self that sends people right back into the illusion because it’s how we got programmed in the beginning from our parents and other authority figures. People in the illusion, who live from the false self, can’t see the truth. They can only see their own filter of the world. So they look at you and can’t see the changes you’ve made; they see their old judgments of you even though you aren’t that person.
This created so much pain for me. When I was letting go at a rapid speed, I was married to a man who could only see his mother in me. I knew that I was not his mother, but he didn’t. We had conversations that made no sense. He’d even see physical issues in me that did not exist but had existed in his mother. When I believed him, I felt crazy. When I didn’t believe him, he’d say I was crazy. It was simply time to get out. My belief that we were married (marriage is a false self ceremony created by man) allowed this false relationship to continue.
Our parents often play this same role when they don’t see our new heart-centered ways. We are labeled lazy or crazy. This is the hardest part of the journey because we’re facing our handlers from the past, the people who installed our false self into our minds. They created us in their preferred image and likeness, and they don’t like when we reject their creation. But without this step, we cannot be free.
The true world is 180 degrees from the false illusion. So things that are problems in the illusion are really signs of our True Self poking out; we are on the train to paradise. We have to pay attention because often the old signs that we followed were directing us down the path to hell, not leading us to the promised land.
The mind can trick us into thinking the illusion of pain and suffering is real. Each time it gets us to believe the old lies, it temporarily pulls us back into its false world. But once we get a glimpse of truth, that old illusion feels really bad. Allow that bad feeling to push you harder toward freedom. Use it as a reminder to let go. Trust that your emotions are exposing the lies and beliefs in your mind, and let them go quickly.
Stay with it. Often when the world seems the most dark and things look hopeless, if we just let go of one more lie, a level of clarity appears; and we see a sign that reminds us that we are headed in the right direction. We gas up the car and keep driving. We’ll be there soon.
Another post related to this one is: Thirteen Signs You’re Freedom Bound!