Ten Signs That Your True Self is Waking Up

By Cathy • June 30th, 2012
People are waking up and are often confused by the signs and symptoms

Remembering your True Self can be very disturbing and confusing!

By Cathy Eck

This article is about using processes that were once labeled initiation (or letting go of all beliefs and belief systems to achieve mental and emotional freedom).  It is not the same as other articles with similar titles that refer to walking a spiritual path, enlightenment, or ascension.  So read carefully, and you might discover that what you’ve always wanted, but didn’t realize you wanted it, was FREEDOM!

 

Spiritual Awakening or True Self Remembering?

Many people around the world are talking about spiritual awakening; people are seeking in great numbers.  Today, there are many different options for the seeker that involve learning, changing their mind, taking on new beliefs, and doing practices.  There was another path that has been lost; this path was about remembering our True Self–becoming who we truly are.   It was called initiation.  The difference is in the desired end result.  Spiritual awakening is about becoming enlightened or spiritual by gathering more knowledge and beliefs.  Initiation is about mental and emotional freedom.  In initiation, we let go of beliefs and knowledge that we don’t need.  Free people are enlightened.  Enlightened people are not necessarily free.  Here’s why.  You were born spiritual and enlightened.  You cover up that natural spirituality by accepting belief systems and knowledge that you don’t need.  So you can’t get back to who you are, a spiritual being with no beliefs or the True Self, by learning or adding on more information and beliefs.  You can’t raise your vibration if your thinking is false no matter how much you practice or eat healthy.  Your vibration is caused by your thinking and beliefs.  If you put true information into your mind through learning, you have added to the false self.  Memorized truth is false information…knowledge.  It is not pure wisdom.  In doing this, people create what I call a clone of the True Self.  It sounds and looks like a True Self, but it is not a True Self because it is bothered by others, fearful, and judgmental.  Often this is described as super sensitivity; sadly, it’s making many people chronically sick.  That clone of the True Self does not want us to get free.  It wants to rule our body and life.  The clone false self projects the old beliefs that it no longer says it believes outward on to others.  The clone then tells us that others are so negative and we have to hide from them, we must practice harder, and we must save the world from the apocalypse.  Initiation is about fully being in the world, enjoying it, and not believing that which is false.  It is about reigniting our natural discrimination.  We become calm and quiet-minded beings; but not because we do practices or fix our thinking to sound truthful.  We simply aren’t affected by the thinking and beliefs of others because we know it is false.

The abundance of teachers of all things spiritual has caused a lot of confusion.  In fact, if you choose the path of initiation, you will have to let go of everything you learned from self-help, New Age, and religion.  Those teachings create a false spiritual aspect in our mind (the clone); it’s huge trap to freedom.  Those teachings are belief systems relabeled the truth; and your real True Self is void of beliefs.  In short, you don’t need to learn the truth.  You were born with it inside.  As you let go, you find that truth, but it is in your OWN words.  Your truth is your freedom, wisdom, and creativity; and it harmonizes and connects with everyone else’s True Self.

When I named this article, I used spiritual awakening in the title.  That caused confusion; but if I change the URL now, it will alter all the links I have on my websites.  So I want to be clear at the start of this article that I’m not condoning all those spiritual paths that others speak of.  As far as I’m concerned they are false.  I’m saying that if you feel the symptoms that I describe, it may very well be caused by your spiritual path.  Your True Self is screaming to you to drop it because your teacher, preacher, guru, or healer is building your false self, not eliminating it.  That causes emotions.

The ancient initiates saw everything as mind.  They didn’t have the concept of spirit.  But they had the view that part of our mind is hard wired.  You can’t alter it. It’s perfect.  It is the part of our minds that are all ONE.  They called that the True Self.  The idea behind initiation was that you let go of all the beliefs that caused you to get stuck within the illusion (the reality that is created from beliefs); then you got free.  You came back to who you were initially (when you were born).  You were not born with religious, cultural, psychological beliefs, or knowledge.  You learned all that.  So often when people feel the symptoms that I describe below, they go seeking.  They look for teachers and gurus.  They do practices and techniques.  They try to raise their vibration.  They say affirmations.  None of those things will get you free.  I share why on other posts on this blog and on my other blog No Labels, No Lies.

Unlike the idea that many have about the soul, the True Self remains perfect.  You can’t screw it up or eliminate it.  But you can cover it up with a false self.  So in the mind of the ancient initiates, spiritual awakening would be more like remembering who you are.  I say remembering, not awakening, because your spirit has always been awake.  It didn’t fall, die, or disappear.  It didn’t fall asleep, so it doesn’t need to wake up.  You just covered it up with beliefs, teachings, and false reasoning.

The reason that I wrote this blog and http://nolablesnolies.com is to help people through this difficult phase of life.  Most techniques and explanations out there today produce fear, frustration, and suffering. They don’t fix it.  Often they just move problems or suffering from one place in our body or lives to another.  What many believe to be a spiritual calling is actually a call to drop the false self.  No one has ever told us how to do that.  I do on my blogs.  But let me be clear.  All that seeking you did only added to your false self.  You have not done anything to get free until you start to let go of beliefs.  At that time, you step on a new path not a continuation of your spiritual path.  That can be hard to hear.  People often want to tell me about their spiritual journey, but they are here because their spiritual journey hasn’t gotten them what they really want–freedom.  So accepting that sad fact, and dropping all those practices, beliefs, and ceremonies, helps to eliminate many of the symptoms I describe below.  It helps you see that letting go does work and is what you wanted all along.  Then you just stay with it until you remember who you truly are.

Many people today look at the civilized world, produced by the wealthy élite, and know that it’s all a bunch of lies (the illusion).  They see holes in the logic of politics, religion, and education.  But sadly, people are not seeing that the spiritual teachers and motivational speakers are just teaching religion with new words.  You can’t learn who you are from another person.  You have to excavate it in yourself.  You have to remove the beliefs that cover it, not float above it in meditation or other practices.  Your emotions are your friend in initiation; you need them.  So you don’t want to do things like EFT or releasing your emotions.  You won’t find the causal beliefs that way.  Many truly kind and compassionate people are falling for the same old traps all over again because once you are in the illusion, the law of attraction pulls you to more of the same kind of leader.  That’s why I teach you how to become your own leader.  That’s the way out.

We see the collective illusion that we’ve been taught to see, and it looks real.  It is real, but it isn’t true.  It’s just an illusion — a bunch of commonly held beliefs stored in our false mind.  And if we let go of our OWN false mind, we won’t see that illusion anymore; or if we do see it, we won’t be bothered by it.  Too often people get angry at the illusion, fight it, and protest it instead of letting go.  That doesn’t get us to freedom.  There is no need to fight something unreal; you just have to stop paying attention to it so it can disappear.

 

We just want to be our SELVES!

People in the process of remembering who they are sometimes hear a friendly, unconditionally loving voice that says, “Don’t listen to other people.  Follow me.  Do your own thing.  Listen to your heart.”  Call it their passion or call it their True Self, as I do; it’s a much more pleasant voice to honor.  It’s your voice.  People soon realize that this voice feels good; and that old, critical and punishing voice feels terrible.  Let me be clear.  This is an inner voice; it’s not the memorized voice of a teacher to follow.

 

The Big Psychological Reversal

Thousands of years ago, the Lords, Priests, and Kings reversed our psychological perspective for their own benefit.  Originally, we were True Selves that followed our heart, our joy, and our passion.  Staying on our own path and achieving our destiny was easy.

But then things changed.  Most myths and legends say that some people became power-hungry.  They wanted others to serve them and their needs.  Or perhaps they wanted to make life a bit more interesting and challenging.  The reason this psychological reversal occurred is unclear.  But there is no question that it actually occurred.

Humans were slowly conditioned through stories and laws to believe that thoughts which felt bad were true; and thoughts that felt good and calm were imaginary or temptations to trick us.  This enabled the élite, who created this giant web of lies, to get rich, powerful, and have plenty of slaves to fulfill their needs.

 

People are Catching On

This is such a wonderful time.  The false matrix or illusion, which held everyone bound in slavery, is losing its power; and those who support it are being exposed.  People now question the leaders who sound great but feel terrible.  They question false authority and choose to ignore it.  As more and more people catch this wave of truth, unconditional love, and freedom, we can all move toward paradise on earth very quickly if people let go of the old beliefs.  And therein lies the problem.  People don’t know how to let go of their old beliefs.  Their minds are at war between the old, and very popular, false self and the True Self.   They aren’t sure what is True and what is false.  And too many channels and New Age teachers are offering reasons that aren’t correct or helpful.  Techniques that get us  to see the facade don’t get us out of it.

Even worse, eastern teachings have flooded the western world.  They speak about the good, the positive, and the true.  They encode their beliefs into practices and rituals.  And they project the bad, the negative, and the false on to others who don’t do the practices or think the good thoughts.  It is just another version of the religious notion of good and evil.  When we put the truth from others in our mind, we create a false positive self (the clone).

 

False Labels and Lies

Sadly, many of the signs of remembering our True Self and needing to let go of the false self have been labeled as problems or diseases; this causes us to get trapped in the false world again and again.  We think there is something wrong when there is actually the prospect of something right.  But we have to know how to read the signals.

So here are a few signs of remembering our True Self that are often mislabeled as flaws or problems.  You don’t need to have them all (or any for that matter), so don’t create those you don’t have.  If you have noticed any of these errors in your mind, simply let them go when they arise by noticing the thoughts don’t feel good and reminding yourself that they are not true.  If you need help letting go, see my other blog, No Labels, No Lies.  I recommend starting with the earliest posts and moving forward in time.

False notions always come with emotion, usually lots of it.  And we’ve often numbed ourselves to emotions in the past.  We did this because we felt trapped; and when in prison, it is more pleasant to numb yourself than to feel emotional pain.  Many of us created positive, happy or spiritual personalities to mask our pain.  Others simply wallowed in the sadness and hoped for a little attention.  We must be willing to feel again to know true from false.  We must be willing to call our mind on its games and payoffs and stop giving them energy.

 

1.  People who once sounded intelligent or spiritual now sound ridiculous.  

I was recently on a cruise ship where a Rabbi provided a daily, religious service.  He spoke about the story of Noah’s ark.  He never once offered a metaphorical interpretation or even a lesson.  He told it as real proof and reason to fear the end times, God hates us, story.  I almost started to laugh.  He really took that story seriously.  He really thought that animals marched on the ark two by two.  He was an adult, a mature man, who never questioned the logic of the story.  He sounded like a child.  And people applauded his sermon. They didn’t question his words because he was an authority.

How do I know that story is not true?  I could say it is illogical to think that one man could get two of every species of animals on an ark.  I couldn’t even get my dog and my cat in the same room most of the time.  But logic can lie.  A better reason is that the notion that God would wipe out his own human children doesn’t feel good.  I’ve learned that when our emotions roar we are thinking or hearing a belief, not the truth.  We have to catch that a psychological reversal that was implanted into our mind earlier in life is running.

When we find the perspective where logic and emotions agree, we’ve found the truth.  We’ve found the perspective of the God and Goddess who were united in the ancient alchemical marriage.

One of the tricks that the old patriarchal Lords used to subdue the masses was to tell a story with a hero who followed their rules.  The people focused on the hero consciously while their unconscious took in the leader’s self-centered intention of the story, which was to program the people to think they were powerless mortals.  The story was designed to make people fear God’s wrath.  It sent an unconscious message that God was vengeful and powerful; and we had better obey like Noah.  Once we accepted a story as true, we begin to see proof of it.  Our world reflects what we believe to be true until we let our beliefs go.  So the story takes on a life of its own.  We no longer challenge its validity.

People point to the Bible as the word of God as proof for the stories.  Much of the Bible was written by initiates, and they didn’t perceive the world like people do today (but we’ll leave that for another article).  The truth is that our concept of God fell, not humans.  S/he went from being a pure creator to a punishing judgmental male jerk (a projection of the leaders of the time).

 

2. You feel constant emotion around other people.  

This is a very confusing symptom.  People often believe they are depressed, bipolar, or going insane.  They also often think the emotions are coming from others.  They usually aren’t.  The emotions are caused by believing what others are saying; and the others aren’t speaking truthfully.  We should just ignore them.  We should be able to tell them that their words are not true.  But we developed this habit as children of believing what others say.  This frequently gets worse when people start listening to channels and spiritual teachers.  They say things that sound true, but their words are mixed with falsehood.  Our mind takes in more and more false.  Our emotions signal that this is happening.  But no one understands what is causing the emotions.  They label them.

The false self wants desperately to stay alive; so it never tells the truth.  The truth sets us free.  It is contrary to freedom.  Our false self is personal; it was not meant to be connected to others.  However, we acquired it from others so we created false connections of shared beliefs.  When we meet others with the same false beliefs, we feel related and safe.  But this is a false relationship.  Our True Self doesn’t connect with others around beliefs; in fact, you can’t break a true Self connection.  You can only mask it with false-self relating.  Thus unconditional love never dies; but romance fades over time.

Let’s say that you shared a cultural belief or tradition with your family.  Now you start challenging your own mind and letting go of false beliefs.  You recognize that this tradition was only a belief.  You feel disconnected from your family.  You still have a True-Self connection, but the false-self connection is now broken.  That can feel like a loss although it is really a gain.

 

3.  The body demonstrates the symptoms of all the illnesses we once believed were real.  

This is a good one.  Most of us connected our false mind to our body.  We took in lots of knowledge that we acquired from others about health, food, disease, exercise, etc. and gave the knowledge power over our body.  The True Self manages the body perfectly, but not if it isn’t in charge.

Our false mind holds beliefs about diseases, and we are sure they are real.  If we meet the conditions for the diseases we hold in mind, we get them.  We were taught about diseases from authorities who had conviction that they were real.

We are naturally healthy; only a false self can get a disease.  To get free of the disease mindset, we have to face all of our beliefs and let them go.  So our body will show us what we believe.  Our job is to recognize the belief, and let it go.

This is tricky.  If we are working as a healer, we might say we believe in health.  But then what are we treating?  In my work, I have to let go of the belief that people are not free or else I keep them stuck.  If they bring up a lie, I don’t go into a protocol to fix the lie.  I simply recognize the lie as a lie/belief and let it go in my mind.  That gives them the freedom to do the same.  In truth, we can only heal ourselves.  But often the beliefs of others imposed on us can make that healing difficult.

When disease symptoms first arose within my body, I thought I was being punished by the mean God in the sky.  I could not find the cause.  Sometimes my body was giving me a specific metaphorical message; but more often I had just accepted a belief in the disease or punishment from another.   We have to remember that doctors and healers don’t have an income if we are well.  They have little motivation to see us as perfect.  Once we see this, we stop asking them to keep us healthy.  They can’t do it because they hold in mind a huge catalog of things that go wrong with bodies.  They can’t imagine a person who is perfectly healthy; so don’t ask them to do so.

 

4.  We feel like we don’t belong.  

We go to the doctor and feel like we don’t belong.  We don’t.  We go to church and feel like we don’t belong.  We don’t.   We take a class and find the information doesn’t feel good.  These were all places that we previously went to feel safe or included.  They’re hang outs for false selves.  The false self hates being alone.  It wants to be among like-minded people.

Oh we definitely DO belong in the world.  The world was designed for the True Self, not the false self.  But the True Self doesn’t feel lonely.  It’s connected to everyone unconditionally.  If we feel lonely, the false self is talking.  Let whatever it is saying go.

It’s the false self that doesn’t belong.  Often it is very hard to remember that when we see how well the world accommodates false selves.

 

5.  We can no longer work for the man.  

We finally quit that secure job, and our family and friends lose it.  They’re sure we’ll be homeless; and if we share our family and friend’s beliefs, we will be.

We’ve lost our ability to play the master-slave game.  That is a cause for celebration.  But it often doesn’t feel like a celebration if we’re surrounded by people who remind us that our future home will be the sidewalk on Main Street.  Don’t worry.  They are just showing us some of our fears that we still unconsciously believe.  Notice that none of the things they say feel good. so they are not true.  A belief will leave when you no longer believe it.  It needs your attention to thrive.

How do you know they are lying or speaking from the false self?  After all, they think they have your best interests in mind.  People only speak what they believe.  The truth is in everyone.  It needs no expression.  You know untrue statements because they don’t feel good…they generate emotion.  Our emotions show us what is true and what is false.  And if we let go of all the false thoughts, eventually we are left with nothing but truth.  The truth was always there; it was just covered by a big pile of manure.  Everyone has something true that they can do that can contribute and will pay their bills.  It won’t feel like work.  You won’t find it by taking personality tests or doing therapy.  You find it by letting go and unveiling your True Self.

Our desires show up and pull us forward so that we can see our beliefs and let them go.  But letting go takes time, so we might need to have what I refer to as a bridge job that is easy and allows us to let go until we fully remember our Self.  We are not meant to struggle to fulfill our dreams.  We are not meant to work to make another rich.  It is not virtuous to work hard in a job we hate.  Our work was meant to be a labor of love, and we cannot be happy until we achieve that.

 

6.  We lose our empathy.  

This sign of remembering confused and bothered me so much.  I thought I was becoming a bad person.  I thought I was turning into a robot without emotion.  I thought I had Asperger’s syndrome.  But when we awaken, we recognize that our emotions are pointing to our OWN thoughts only.  To emote about another’s thoughts is like feeding your friend because you are hungry.  It’s stupid.  As we let go, we learn to replace empathy with compassion.

Compassion means that when you are sitting before me flushing your shit all over me, I recognize that it’s not true.  I don’t believe a word you say.  I may even remind you that you are believing lies and not being true to your authentic Self.  I don’t agree with you.  I don’t pick you up or sympathize.  I merely help you discriminate.  I help you to return to your own True Self where there are no problems.  The best example of this is Jesus.  He never believed another’s lies, and that’s why he could support another in healing anything.  He was not sympathetic, he was compassionate.

We live in a world where we feel sorry for others, and then we get approval for being sympathetic.  We fish for others, and they never learn to fish.  People learn to fish when we tell them how to fish and trust them to do it.  Sympathy never freed anyone; in fact, it keeps the person who gives it and the one who receives it in the prison of the false self.

 

7.  You feel like you have no purpose.  

All those fake purposes of serving others lose their luster.  You can’t imagine doing the things that you used to do.  You feel the need to do something but don’t know what to do.  Often, you have no motivation to do much except heal your own mind.

That is great news.  That is your purpose.  Jesus said it well.  “Find ye first the kingdom of heaven and all else will be added unto you.”  

You’re bored with the old world of good and evil; you’re sick and tired of being sick and tired.  You don’t want to win and you don’t want to lose.  You think hard work is stupid.  And you look like a complete ass to the rest of the world.  You look lazy as you find no motivation to work hard anymore.

Congratulations, you’re True Self is screaming.  Don’t worry about your purpose or try to explain yourself to anyone.  Just keep letting go of the beliefs that pollute your mind or tell you what you should do.  Don’t take on new beliefs.  If you are doing spiritual practices, take a break.  A few months of letting go, and you’ll see they were causing or contributing to your apathy.  Freedom is not believing anything.  We just know what we know.

 

8.  You can’t stand small talk anymore.  

Remember all those parties that were so fun where you played silly games and talked about your problems for hours.  Those don’t cut it anymore.  When someone says, “How are you?”  you know that they don’t care.  When they ask you what you do, you have no frickin’ idea how to explain it without being judged.

But there is another New Age/self help confusion that is part of this.  People started to think that having a deep or intimate conversation was talking about their beliefs or processing with each other.  That’s just a big load of crap.  It’s perpetuates our problems.  We don’t fix anything by talking about them.  Letting go isn’t about looking for reasons.  We eliminate our problems when we let go of the causal beliefs.  To do that you have to follow your emotions and listen.

 

9.  You run like hell from religious people.  

Once you wake up, you can see religion correctly.  Religion must serve the True Self, not the other way around.  Once awake, you see the true meaning of the Holy books.  I can assure you that the masses are not even close.  But like I said, I include the spiritual seekers and teachers in this same group.  The new Holy books are no different than the old Holy books.

As long as others are trying to save you, convert you, or fix you, you still believe what they are saying unconsciously.  I know that’s hard to hear if you are recovering from some religion that you believe you left.  But old religious beliefs tend to get suppressed.  So we project them on the outside world.  If we are still afraid of our zealous friends, we need to dissect our own mind.  If you clean up your mind, they won’t bother you anymore.  You’ll just say, “I don’t believe you.”

When you are in the midst of remembering your True Self, you’ve at least questioned the punishing, angry, jealous God story.  But do you completely know it’s not true?  This is the key.  You can’t be free until you absolutely know that story is a lie.  And you don’t know it’s a lie until you have completely reclaimed your sense of discrimination.

You know that it’s a lie, when you have remembered that any idea that generates emotion is a lie, a mere belief.  Until you have completely removed that belief, you will attract people who will give you one more rendition of the “saved by Jesus” dance.

I had this one big time.  I used to hide from the religious zealots of the world.  Then I got clear, and now I am direct and honest with them.  I used to feel that I had to prove my spiritual worth to them.  Now I ask them to prove their religion to me.

I knew that the punishing God story was a lie when one day I realized that I would never, ever do or think the things that Jehovah did; therefore, he was less than me, not more.  He was a false God, a god of the illusion (a projection of Moses’ false self).  He is no more real than Santa Claus.

 

10.  People see their own reflection in you.

This is the sign of remembering the True Self that often sends people right back into the illusion because it’s how we got programmed in the beginning from our parents and other authority figures.  People in the illusion, who live from the false self, can’t see the past the illusion to freedom.  They can only see their own filter of the world.  So they look at you and can’t see you; they see their old judgments of you.

This created so much pain for me.  When I was letting go at a rapid speed, I was married to a man who could only see his mother in me.  I knew that I was not his mother, but he didn’t.  We had conversations that made no sense.  He’d even see physical issues in me that did not exist but had existed in his mother.  When I believed him, I felt crazy.  When I didn’t believe him, he’d say I was crazy.  It was simply time to get out.  My belief that we were married (marriage is a false self ceremony created by man) allowed this false relationship to continue.

Our parents often play this same role when they don’t see our new heart-centered ways.  We are labeled lazy or crazy.  This is the hardest part of the journey because we’re facing our handlers from the past, the people who installed our false self into our minds.  They created us in their preferred image and likeness, and they don’t like when we reject their creation.  But without this step, we cannot be free.

 

180 Degrees

The true world is 180 degrees from the false illusion.  But they are not opposites like black and white.  The false world is truly an illusion; it’s real but not true.  The true world is perfect and real and true.  You can’t eliminate it or destroy it.  So problems in the illusion are really symptoms of believing the false self.  If we let go of the belief that caused them, they will disappear.  We have to pay attention because often the old signs that we followed were directing us down the path to hell, not leading us to the promised land.  We have to see that those old signs and beliefs made our life worse, not better.

The mind can trick us into thinking the illusion of pain and suffering is real.  Each time it gets us to believe the old lies, it temporarily pulls us back into its false world.  But once we get a glimpse of truth and freedom, that old illusion feels really bad.  Allow that bad feeling to push you harder toward freedom.  Use it as a reminder to let go.  Trust that your emotions are exposing the lies and beliefs in your mind, and let them go quickly.  You don’t need to know the reason for things happening as they do.  You just need to eliminate the cause; then it can never happen again.

Stay with it.  Often when the world seems the most dark and things look hopeless, if we just let go of one more lie, a level of clarity appears; and we will see some validation that reminds us that we are headed in the right direction.  We gas up the car and keep driving.  We’ll be there soon.

 

Another post related to this one is:  Thirteen Signs You’re Freedom Bound!

 

Comments

I keep coming back to this article to remind me that I’m completely off my rockers : ))

Excellent article. Helps to be reminded … today I needed to be reminded that it is okay to no longer have a sense of purpose. I used to feel so driven until a major crisis 18 months ago and I’ve never been able to feel that motivation again. I thought I had lost something precious and had given up. But maybe it really is okay to just work on clearing my beliefs and see what happens next.

: ) Helle

Hi,
I am new to this site and am reading each and every article. I read this as I feel I am at a spiritual point in my life. I am soul searching for a purpose, then I read #7 above “you feel like you have no purpose”. I know that motivation, and drive feeling, somewhere I lost it. I loved to walk miles a day, now I can go with it or without it. I got laid off of work about a month ago and living in snowy Maine, there isn’t much to do outside. Except shovel! I did lots of that. I find it being ok for me to “Just Be” I have no guilt, fear, shame, and on and on because I can sit and look out the window. I feel at complete peace with myself. Yet, I know this is just the tip of what I want to feel. I don’t even know if this is making sense. I just know I have never been at a place in myself where I feel calm and no stress. I know things are churning inside, I work at stepping aside and let it be. I do have great faith in God and know he is going to have me be exactly where I need to be. I am in no hurry to find a job (at least in this moment) I think what I am feeling is my job for this time. I am learning lots from the articles I have read and so look forward to seeing what else my true self has in store for me.

Peace to you,
Annemarie

By gatewaytogold on February 28th, 2013 at 5:59 pm

You are heading the right way, Annemarie, and the signs are telling you that. Just keep going. You might also like my other site which has shorter articles on different topics. It is http://nolabelsnolies.com. My goal is to provide the support and community for people like you to keep moving toward your True Self and not feel pulled to turn back. That is how we change the world. Thank you for writing. Cathy

Great article. Im having a hard time with my partner. He says im negative and I dont get excited for anything. I know he doesnt understand and I dont judge him even if it seems like we are growing apart. Events happened that have impacted my view of everything. Its a lonely road. Im glad I found this article. Thank you.

By gatewaytogold on March 9th, 2013 at 7:57 pm

It isn’t uncommon for people to grow apart when one steps on the path of apiritual awakening. Just know there is nothing wrong with you and what you are experiencing is good even if it makes him uncomfortable. Thank you for your comment. Cathy

Thanks for this helpful article. I going through must of the situations you wrote about, specially the second one. Sometimes I think I am going crazy or I’m bipolar and it gives me a little headache and anxious because I’m not sure. It’s hard to keep in mind this new beliefs when all the people that surrounds you keep telling you that you live in a different reality. I’m doing the steps to became an independent person, but It’s very hard to me accept that I have to do some jobs that don’t make any senses, like waitress. I also feel a lot of emotions and have a lot of stupid thoughts when I’m with others, like a stream of old beliefs that I can’t handled because they are to many and very strong. So this article gave me the hope that there is an end to all this big confusion I’m passing through. Thanks again.

By Craig Spencer on June 12th, 2013 at 10:00 pm

I cant tell thank you enough for this article. I experienced much of what you stated. Every now and again I need a reminder that I am not crazy!! I believe in my heart it was pain that brought me this wondrous gift of awakening. I spent the better part of thirty years not believing in anything due to the simple fact that we do live in a matrix of lies!! I couldn’t accept what I was being taught, therefore I chose not to believe in a God. When going through a divorce in 2008 I started seeking for the pain was overbearing. I read the Bible (King James) instead of listening to teachers. I read the Noble Quran, I studied Buddhism, and read several Dead Sea Scrolls. Then one day I was showering, praying to take away this pain when a burst of light entered my mind and in an instant this flash of knowledge so profound went through my head. In that flash I was able to connect everything I had been reading and I now attribute the Gnostics (combined with other teachings) to this awakening. It felt as though a breath of fresh air had entered my body and lifted me up, however it was so strong I dropped to my knees and started crying with JOY!!! I know this may sound crazy and I know its different for everyone but mine was so powerful I nearly lost it. I lived in darkness most my life and this new spiritual feeling inside me was the most uplifting thing I have ever felt and I knew there was a Creator. I quit my engineering job at Boeing and my family thought I was nuts but I could no longer work for the man. There was a problem though, the old beliefs kept trying to creep back in and my family made sure to convince me that Jesus was going to save me for Satan had me in his grip. My mom then diagnosed me bipolar (LOL) and sought to have me committed. It wasn’t until I started shutting my mouth about these new ideas I was having that she subsided. The truth of the matter I found is we are all Sons of God…not just Jesus and he cant save me although focusing on just a few of his teachings can. He is a loving God and I no longer fear His wrath. For the first time in my life I am an individual and I refuse to join the masses ever again!!! There are just a few things I focus on now. The Sadducees, Pharisees, and Scribes are liars! Put Him first in all you do! Don’t lie, cheat, steal and when you do make amends fast!!! Love everyone as you do yourself! Screw their lies and quit feeling guilty!!! The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. God is LOVE and LOVE=TRUTH!!! That’s all folks. I love being crazy!!!

And I love that you are crazy too. Keep up the good work. Today’s nuts are tomorrow’s oak trees.
Cathy

Love what you wrote Cathy. It’s really great to hear other people sharing their spiritual experiences. There’s a truth in all of us. It’s so simple, yet so complicated when we look the wrong way. I would love to hear from all of you some day! a bunch of wackos! lol. Please feel free to visit my blog (spiritualwellbeing.ca) and share your thoughts, i would love to get feedback. Hope it will contribute to the awakening process,

Carl

What a amazing read, i am going through this myself, would love to connect with other people going through this, was wondering if anyone knew any good forums in which to do that?

great article

Trent

Sorry I don’t know of any forums. Thank you for your comment. Cathy

Really, really powerful stuff. The reason I’m reading this is because currently I’m experience many of the symptoms you describe above. Even though I’ve been into spirituallity since I was young, I’m pretty sure I awoke 2 years ago and since then my drive for something more has been nuts. It feels like I’m walking around in a world that does not understand my point of view. I’m having doubts about finishing my studies, working a job, etc. simply because it doesn’t seem to make sense anymore. I don’t enjoy it. The whole world is screaming that I have to do, something however. I’m only focussed on becoming more of my Self. I have a strong feeling that I want to flee this broken record of people repeating the same mantra’s in real life saying I should do this and that. If they would have told me the same things 10 years ago I would’ve believed them. Now it doesn’t make sense what they are saying anymore and the difficult part is that they can’t seem to put themselves in my perspective. It is as if I have a whole different look on things than most people around me. Even though I believe in my heart that what I’m doing is right… my world feels like its upside down at the moment and I’m not sure what I’m suppost to do besides look for peace and positivity and take time to purify myself.

Thank you for writing to me. I completely understand your perspective and have been there.
But there is more that you can do. What you are seeking is completely freedom from the
status quo so you can be yourself in the world regardless of what everyone else thinks or does.

I provide free support for that on my other website. I have over 100 articles on letting go
and breaking free on that site. The address is http://nolabelsnolies.com. I created that site
to make life easier and to provide support for people just like you. You aren’t alone.

I hope that is helpful to you.

How fantastic it is to read all of this! You have no idea how alone I have felt. I probably have every symptom listed! The only query I have is how do you let things go. I’m really strugglng with this. A few things happened to me during childhood and they keep resurfacing. I don’t understand how to tell myself the things are not true when they really did happen? I have truely forgiven all concerned but still they return to my mind again and again – they are causing so much sadness and I’m finding it hard to move forward. Any advise would be appreciated.

Thank you Dee…glad it was helpful. You can learn how to let go at my other website http://nolabelsnolies.com. Start with the earliest posts and the posts build as time goes on. Cathy

Thank you for this article. Over the last two years, I have meditated daily. I reached a low point in my life, previously, to where I began to experience basically all of these symptoms. I actually am currently in my second year of law school, and although I plan to press on and finish (for my family’s sake), I find myself looking out the window of the library thinking thoughts such as “the prisons of the world take many forms”. A great deal of the time when I find that I am in what I consider to be a mindful state, I feel as if maybe there is something wrong with me because I have an almost complete lack of inner dialogue. I have read articles claiming that these are signs of Electromagnetic Field Sickness, psychosis, etc. It is nice to hear a like minded standpoint. I believe my spirituality to be “correct” with all of me, but the skepticism I have gained since recognizing the problem of ego and my changed perception on the world leads me to think “you can never be 100% sure of anything, almost no one can”, basically the core fundamental of quantum mechanics. Naysayers will say what they want, you can almost “see” the egos of others manifest when you speak of “oneness” or “death of the ego” or “treating others kindly” or being honest, not because you lack the ability to lie, because you feel it is toxic for the soul. I believe this is a beautiful time in human history, those who are waking up (which I believe to be, at least partially, contributed to the free flowing knowledge of the internet having an impact on the “collective consciousness”) need to be supportive of each other. I am not alone, and neither are you. Love and Light are what drive this universe, all perceptions of “evil” can be traced back to the disease known as ego. Namaste.

Thank you for your comment. I felt exactly as you did. But you see enlightenment isn’t the end of the road.
It is a misconception that creates a false endpoint to the journey to freedom and pure joyous creativity.

We see how the world works, and then we must let it go and return to our True Self. Meditation doesn’t get us there.
It takes us above our body, but ultimately we want to be in the body and feel as if we are meditating. That path has
been called the path of initiation in ancient times. And that is what I share. We travel that path by
letting go of beliefs and labels that we have been defined by in the past. Then we are reborn and create as pure
creators. And we can’t be alone since we have a true connection with everyone.

I write about that on this site as well as my other site: http://Gatewaytogold.com. Have a wonderful journey to freedom.
Cathy

I can relate to everything in this article. I had what felt like jumper cables used to wake me up and I haven’t been the same ever since. What I saw / experienced can’t be put in words and my family thought I was nuts when I tried. I have a strong desire to not be in this life anymore because I had a glimpse of something else and I long to be there instead. Its gotten to the point of feeling severely detached and depressed about still being in this life. At times I have clarity and other times my mind is a mass of confusion. I almost can’t deal with it…

Thanks for writing Lisa. You aren’t alone on that feeling. The strange thing is that when our emotions start to work as they were designed, we’re often considered nuts. We start to see through the facades, and people don’t want to be exposed. But it does get better with time if you let go. I promise. Cathy

By anushreeagarwal on May 19th, 2014 at 12:00 am

Hi Cathy, Read your article and makes a lot of sense. Its just that I realised I was an empath only last year and before that I was just a girl with weird moodiness, love, telepathic tendencies, etc to the world. I mostly felt out of place and was trying hard to fit in. Sometimes, I could feel pain of people sitting across miles without even they telling me.

Before this realisation, I used to excel at my job and did really well everywhere. But now there has been such a sudden shift in me. I don’t feel like going to work anymore, all I want is to sit in Natures lap and keep gazing and absorbing the nectar of nature. I don’t align with corporate goals anymore.

The only hitch is I don’t have financial backup to Dp all of this. I don’t even know where to start from. All I do is just feel lost, because the world and the dictums don’t make sense to me.

Maybe if u have some thoughts that ‘ll be great.

Love and joy
Anu.

Hello Anu,
I had much of the same problem. First of all I want to recommend an article on my other website: http://nolabelsnolies.com/sympathy-empathy-compassion/.
Many people have found this helpful. You see empathy is a stage and a label. It isn’t the destination. So you want to be able to use those valuable emotions to show you
what is false in the person or in your mind and let it go (also explained more on No Labels No Lies). Then you move up to compassion, which most people don’t understand.
Compassion is when we recognize that what another is doing or saying or believing doesn’t feel good, and it isn’t true so we let go of that belief as being who they are
and allow them freedom from it. It is exactly how Jesus healed. He didn’t have empathy or sympathy; he had compassion. And that is where real power lies.

As you do that, you find your place within the world where you can make the biggest difference and that takes care of your financial problems. Hope that helps some
if not write to me and I’ll guide you to other articles or offer more information that I hope will make a difference. Most of what is out there gets us to the place of empathy,
but what I write about will take you to true compassion. Love, Cathy

I needed to hear #7 as I have struggled with it so much lately, even though I know the only thing I have to do is just be! The world tries to tell me I need to do something in order to be successful. I will focus on my inner self and my family. Thanks, I can relax once again.

Thank you for your comment Cassandra. That one gets a lot of us. The world loves to tell us what to do and how to do it when we already know everything we need. Glad you are now relaxing into that. Cathy

By Holly Hamilton on July 28th, 2014 at 6:42 am

I enjoyed this article a lot and looked it up because I got really scared suddenly and didn’t know why. I couldn’t understand the feeling and I felt like I’d left my body, but then I realized while reading this it wasn’t bad. I was just feeling afraid for punishment from an attacking entity for helping my friends yesterday by helping to suddenly cleanse and open up their chakras. When I did so they said they felt better which made me happy and hopefully they continue to do so. What I really noticed about this article too though is that I’ve felt many ways similar to this article and it’s only a matter of time before I awaken according to my spiritual teachers/ friends. To be honest though I was trying to figure out what pressure on the forehead and feeling whole while it happened meant. Thank you for the article though it was very interesting to read.

Hi Holly,
The fear was the belief that an entity was attacking you. That’s false. There are no entities. That’s New Age lies that scare people when religion is wearing off. Awakening is about remembering who you are and that you are safe, free, and calm all the time. Sadly many have this confused. You have nothing to fear. Thank you for your comment. Love, Cathy

Wow! I am glad I found this site.. I feel strong love and emotion for everyone i come in contact with. I only see their True self.
I had an amazing awakening about 4 yrs. ago…When I was walking along the river trail here in Bend Oregon, one spring morning…It was beyond words….I felt an over-whelming feeling of love that overcame me to the point of tears of joy…At that point , my whole body was full of pure love and pure light…esp. my crown chakra…I thought it was a kundalini awakening? I was in a constant state of bliss for about 1-1/2 years…I was one with everything..the universe…Today, at times I feel alone, because I know in my heart. I see something others don’t see…I can simply be at one with life with no other cares in the world. I am so happy I have reconnected with my true self…And you amazing Folks as well!! I too enjoy being crazy….and apart from the chaos and one with my heart/soul….Thank you for the article…I connect with all of it…and alot of the comments as well….

Hi Cathy,

I really enjoyed the article and the comments. I am interested to know why you disagree with Eastern religions and their influence?
Their practices teach us to reconnect with what you describe as the True Self. Eastern practices are not the same as this Western ‘self-help’ model that has permeated the mainstream.
Eastern religions teach us to work to awaken with our inner being, our inner light, our inner God, our inner energies. Awaken and rediscover are two words for the same process!
Holy scriptures and texts are open to interpretation, and are full of symbols. They are certainly not meant to be taken literally, as we know. But they do offer insights for connecting with the True Self.
I find it interesting the idea that ’emotion stems from our beliefs’. Part of me agrees with this, but part of me remembers that this applies to both good and bad emotions. We can’t just attribute bad feelings to the lies of other people, we much also realise that if that is the case, feelings of happiness and joy and love are just products of our ego, and are unsustainable too.
I would appreciate any insights you have to my response. Thanks again for taking the time to read this and I hope to hear from you soon

Hi Alice,
Your questions are not easy to answer with a short answer, but let me point you in the right direction. First off all, eastern religions are religions. They have beliefs too; the beliefs are just different from the western beliefs (often the opposite). So they imply that everyone who gets free (or they usually say enlightened, which is not the same as freedom) would have the same point of view. That is true of all religions. That is not true of this journey of initiation that I explain. As people let go of all of their beliefs, they get to their own unique perspective. And they would never teach that perspective because they recognize that others should think as they do. They would simply help others to let go if they wanted the help, but beliefs don’t bother them anymore. Also with eastern religions, they have practices. If you let go of the beliefs that you hold, you don’t need practices. Practices fix the effects of our beliefs. Only our false self can stand to do the same thing day after day as a practice. We will ourselves to do it or tell ourselves it is right or good. Thus we are creating beliefs. When I first work with people, they all think they have few beliefs. Then they start really going into their mind, not meditating above it (see article on western meditation on this site) and they say, “Oh my God, I have so many beliefs that I thought were true.” It is a harsh realization.

The True Self tends to have a unique creativity to it. But in this work, I don’t speak about the truth except to kind of give some idea of what it looks like as you let go. I don’t want people to think their experience has to look like mine for sure. What I speak about is how to let go of beliefs so you can find the truth as it is right for you. In eastern religions they try to develop the qualities of the True Self. Teachers speak of the truth and then the false mind tends to memorize it. That’s not finding the True Self. If I tell you to stay in the present moment, you will try to manage your thoughts or meditate. If you let go, you will one day always be in the present moment. You won’t have to try to do it ever again. You won’t be hooked by the past or the future. Memorizing the truth isn’t knowing the truth; and it is hard to tell the difference in others. But we know it in ourselves. Knowing the truth, we just live it. We don’t talk about it much, which is why I quit writing the blog. I wanted to offer this to people, but not turn it into anything other than an option. On my blog http://nolabelsnolies.com, I explain letting go more fully. And the front page explains the essence of this. You don’t need to know the truth or learn the truth, it is in you. You were born with it. But it is hidden below your beliefs. But I can say this to people and I do all the time. Your question is very common. Only when they start letting go of their eastern beliefs of what they are told is true, do they see it.

One your second question, there are no good or bad emotions. There are emotions and they always mean false. We label an emotion based on the situation in which it occurs. But that is part of the illusory belief system (not the illusion I speak of is not the same as the eastern maya). It means you have judged something as right or wrong, good or evil–in western religion, it is the fall mentality. We tend to think that if we have a good judgment that it is true, and that is not true. We project the bad side of that judgment out. Any label is a judgment. So the emotion of a free person is joy, not happiness. Happiness has an opposite so people move between the two depending on their situation. Joy has no emotional component. It is a calm feeling, a peaceful feeling–no emotion. There is an article on No Labels, No Lies about the triangle process (you can search for it) and that will explain it more.

The teachings of Lao Tau and Jesus were the most pure as far as western and eastern standards, but both are usually taught from a false point of view. I wish it weren’t this way. But the people who move the slowest in my mentorship program are the ones who were in eastern practices or had gurus. They are not hearing their True Self, they are hearing the memorized words of their teachers. Therefore, their false self is pretending to be their True Self, and it is an enormous and common trap. To get out, I have them let go of what they believe to be their truth, an then they find the True Self. It isn’t easy. Often the teachers have imprinted their mind pretty powerfully. But you can’t let go of your True Self, so if you let go of everything you believe, you find it.

The essence of letting go is more fully communicated on the other blog, http://nolabelsnolies.com. This blog explains how the illusion was created and why we want to drop it. The other explains the letting go process, emotions, and what is a belief. The blog is best read oldest to newest post. Thank you for writing. Love, cathy

Thank you for this intelligent, well thought out article – blog. I need to read more of these things. I have been on a search – a spiritual search the last 2-3 years – actually it is a life long search but when I was in my early 20s, I officially joined a church – I baptized women and teens – I taught the bible. I spent 5 years in that church. What was wonderful about the church was that it pulled together a lot of like-minded individuals – so I made deep connections with some – and some were just religious. But it breaks my heart that after I left, I went into a darkness. I felt betrayed and angry, not at God but at the world for the few people who have used religion to manipulate. The Bible itself is so rooted in manipulation, yet there are whispers of truth in it. But you cannot hear them without focusing on what I know as TRUTH. That truth is stemmed from God’s Word. What is God’s Word? It is simply his/her PROMISE to love unconditionally. This truly DOES surpass our humanistic understanding. I think a lot of the ‘leaders’ in Christianity thought they were doing good overall for humanity – by creating man and woman to be false selves – thinking that our true self is too evil or sinful. But that is totally contrary to what the universal belief is that we are akin to God – be it God within, created in God’s imagine, etc. If our True Self is so evil we have to pretend to be this other self, then we really are living without faith in God. It makes me SO angry. When in that church, I had serious panic attacks. A friend who I have never been able to shake my spiritual attachment to – 20 years later – have not seen him in 15 years now – I still feel him inside me – spiritually – would call me and pray with me – to focus on things above – and used SCRIPTURE to help calm my panic. He knew which words calmed my true self – satisfied my true self. Most of the words and scriptures made my true self angry or upset is a better word. Sometimes now if I do go to a church service, there ARE moments when I well up in pure JOY though 99% of what is taught I do feel like its juvenile. Like I am listening to kindergarteners in a faith – and like they are SO confined in their beliefs because of The Book. And yet if you question The Book’s integrity – LOOK OUT. Its almost irrational. I do believe, however, that we have a purpose. I think we cant really go looking for it – like you said – our purpose is to discover our true self. How many people positively affect others – and when they realize it – they are brought to tears of joy mainly because they did not realize they were doing that? I think my purpose may be revealed to me in death when I replay this life. I will understand then. I do not think you have it all perfectly correct but I am really interested in how you have evolved to where you are – if evolved is the world. More like unwrapped the false self to reveal the true self. You are definitely ahead of me. I have a lot of religious history to let go. I can identify it now – I can say – that is my training in dogma. That thinking is wrong. Simple things like anxiety on Sundays when I am not at church – the anger that I get because I feel that way – that too. But there is a God for real – I happened to listen to a Sunday sermon on TV – I usually click away – but it was like – God was actually speaking through this man because so much of what he was saying CONTRADICTED himself. And he sealed it up with a bow by repeating that we had to not give up meeting together – hence, you are in sin if you are not in church this morning. And it is a televised show. I am like – is he tossing that out to all of us watching – like SHAME ON YOU! And I just laughed. And then I felt the pain of how many people are so stuck in these little prisons and how that must break God’s heart. And of course, then I ask myself, who am I to think I know better? And I know that is my false self again, and that is because I feel crazy for a moment. I confess that at this point in my life, I feel crazy a lot more than not. I feel a need to define my beliefs. I feel like that is also a prison – so I guess that is where I am stuck. Thank you for taking the time to write all you write though because you don’t have to. It is – in itself, your purpose.

Thank you for your comment, Lara. As you read more of my blog, you’ll see that I don’t claim to have it all right because right and wrong is part of the illusion. I know everyone is unique, and so I rarely say what life will look like when you get beyond the false self except in general directional terms. I don’t want to define heaven on earth. My intention is simply to teach people on this site and on http://nolabelsnolies.com how to let go of false beliefs (which are more plentiful than people realize), and how to discriminate between true and false using their own emotions (not learning). The problem with all religions is that they are trying to teach people to be like their savior or prophet and creating a false self instead of eliminating all the false and allowing each person to be themselves, which as you said is unconditionally loving.

I will say that often people think what I write is pretty crazy until they let go, and then they go back and read it and say, “I get it now.” That is because our false self has a literal, physical perspective. So what I write is usually from a mentally-oriented perspective. The two appear to be opposites. And that is why what I say often sounds kind of too far out or just plain wrong. Once you get past right and wrong, win and lose, and the old standard, good and evil, we all see life harmoniously although not the same. We aren’t angry or afraid of another’s point of view. If they are false, we realize they are powerless. They only look powerful from our false self perspective; the True Self is never afraid. This confuses lots of people. But you are on the right track so just keep going. And realize that you can’t let go of the truth so it never hurts to let go of a belief if you aren’t sure if it is a belief. Love, Cathy

By siobhan walsh on August 30th, 2015 at 2:07 pm

Cathy, Are you my twin separated at birth? I found your website earlier today and keep laughing out loud. I thought I was weird but you think like me and that makes me feel more normal. I want to call you and have a great chat about some of the stuff that doesn’t add up but I cant afford you. But thank you for getting me thinking and making me feel I’m not so weird after all xxx

Hi Siobhan,
That’s funny. We actually have a lot of twins; there’s a lot of us weirdos out there. Actually, we are normal. The rest of the world is confused. Don’t worry, it will all add up in time. Thanks for writing. Love, Cathy

Hey Cathy

Thanks for sharing your insights. I went through all of these “personality gymnastics” when it happened to me too. Sometimes I felt I had discovered paradise. Other times, hell. My family decided I was having a nervous breakdown. They were wrong, though, and perhaps one day they will see. I don’t mind.

I’m finding it hard to maintain a balance between not giving a damn, and having compassion for people. I enjoy the line you draw between “compassion” and “sympathy”. One drains you, the other energizes you. Spot on.

People don’t get it. The say “You just don’t care, do you!” “You heartless beast!” Because that familiar safety net of shared delusion is missing, and they can feel it. So they lash out.

You can’t help anyone who doesn’t want to be helped. You can only fill your own storehouse of love, and share what bubbles over.

Yep Wayne,
What you say is so common. That’s why I wrote the blog, so people would know they aren’t the crazy ones. And one day, they will get that you aren’t a heartless beast that they thought you were. Thanks for writing. Love, Cathy

deaf dumb and blind and they will not return to the truth.

Not sure I understand your comment. I think lots of people get the truth; they just don’t always feel comfortable and supported for it. Cathy

This made me smile :-) Thx for the reminder

well. all the steps relate to me , iv been on the spiritual path since 23 , now 55′ iv been studying nonduality the last ten years ( mostly reading )but last 7 years have been the most serious, i no longer
care about realationships with people , i almost find it silly , unless its real , and dont experience that often, life is tough now , idont get any this from other
people , no satisfaction .im hanging , my family
think im losing it cause im not a big part of them any more ( there just so stupid ). i feel like im going to just have to free fall. and its scary part of me thinks
maybe i am losing it . but i remember getting the books al that you are , and you are god , by mary
when i was 23. and from then on i just kept going
i would tell people ( cause they always would ask
why arnt you married ). im on a spiritual path .
thats all i had , but here i am , buy one thing
i know somthing is happening cause all thoughs signs speak right to me . ya no im sitting here in my appartment and iv run out of enlightened utub videos to watch cant read another book
,and i googled what waking up feels like
and this artical came up , wow somthing elts
i will be reading it feel free to email me
thanks for writing it .

Well now you’ve reached the phase where it is time to realize it was never in those books or videos, it was always in you. It’s time to let it all go. I talk about how to do that on my other site: http://nolabelsnolies.com. You have to use your emotions to let go. Your True Self no longer wants enlightenment or the fruits of the illusion, it wants to be free. That’s the next and last step. Then you know everything and are the creator of your life. Love, Cathy

thx cathy
yes. my plan is to start to notice my thoughts,
i hope i can do it.
iv never been a meditator, and i think , even if you dont think it has it really helps to ready your mind for this . so i have never really meditated ( im a rebellious shit) hated it.

so. i hope i can see that my thoughts .
thx kel

Not being a meditator works in your favor. Meditators often can’t see their beliefs because their mind goes blank. You’ll do fine. Love Cathy

I love the shit out of this article. I thought i was going a little crazy feeling these things. I might point out by adopting some of these beliefs in this article, comforting as they are, i am still simply adding more beliefs systems i must purge later but … Better the devil you know and all that jazz. Thanx for this. Kisses

Thank you Wendi, glad you “loved the shit” out of it. LOL. Yes you bring up a dilemma in the work that I do. You have to unveil the beliefs in order to let them go. Often it feels like you are getting more beliefs. But really you are just seeing it all clearly; the beliefs were there or you would not have had the confusion. The illusion is exactly like the devil you don’t know. It has been veiled in secrecy and it made us all crazy. But as you said, once you know it, it is time to start purging those beliefs because when they are gone, you won’t see the effects of them anymore. So it is good news. Thanks for writing. Love, Cathy

I feel bit relieved to read this article, as I have lost total motivation from my own business and I am willing to sell it if I get a buyer. It has been now 1 year since I am trying to sell and I have not succeed yet. I feel desperate to sell and I don’t know what will I do after that. All I know is that I am feeling inner frustration of not knowing what is exactly going on with me. I have lost interest of many things in life. Coming to do the same thing at my work fees heavy and staying whole day home also does not feel worthy. I am quite confused with everything. But now after reading this article, I feel that I am not alone and there are many on the same boat. Thank you.

Hi Rajiv,
Yes there are many feeling like this, but most don’t realize it. They just numb themselves so they don’t feel. It’s all about wanting to be yourself. Thanks for writing, Cathy

I’m soooo glad I found this article. I’ve been on a spiritual path since late 2013. My awakening began when I left a 13 year marriage and quickly moved on into a relationship with someone that turned out to be a narcissist. I suffered mental and emotional abuse while also self medicating myself at the time with cocaine.

Before my narcissist boyfriend left, I had a dream where Jesus appeared to me. He came out of the forest as I was looking through the window in the back seat of a car. I found myself on the road kneeling in front of him and it was very comforting even though he said nothing.

I got out of that relationship once and for all 4 months later. I suffered PTSD and was still abusing drugs. I had a vision of Archangel Michael appear to me on the wall after what I was doing fell all over the floor. Although i wasn’t in sober state, I realized what I saw. He was stern looking wielding a sword but made me feel safe. He stayed there for 10 minutes.

It was then I knew I had to do something about my addiction. I had severe anxiety as I thought my ex bf was going to ruin me as narcissists do this in various ways. I prayed to keep away and he stayed away. I vowed to stay away from him realizing I needed to deal with my own self issues in order to heal myself. He was a shell of a person and I had to forgive myself for getting involved with him. I realized he wasn’t the person he pretended to be and began to separate the two.

After I slowly forgave myself, I stopped abusing drugs cold turkey and never looked back. Other things started happening with Archangel Michael appearing in a dream and Pope John Paul II. I began to see triple numbers 20-30 times a day and I still see them everyday. Manifestations are happening quicker and I have become very telepathic, I am aware of their meanings with the numbers and the messages. Each time I have a thought I could be driving and a number on a sign or license plate will appear that corresponds to the thought i was thinking.

I began studying the law of attraction, meditation, healing etc and this opened up a whole new world for me. My life has improved dramatically with my business and my new relationship with a good and kind man but I have these bouts of what feels like depression but I know it’s a spiritual awakening I am experiencing.

This leads me to where I am today…I know I am consciously awake. My ego is dying. All of my old friends, habits, etc are of no interest to me anymore. I feel very alone but at the same time I have formed a connection with source and trusting that the universe has me on the right path. Lately I feel very depressed and this has happened about 9 months ago and I began crying and releasing a lot of things . I also lost 45 lbs. It passed..but now here I am feeling disoriented. It feels like I have amnesia and don’t know who I am. I sometimes get these moments where I freeze and think to myself about how I got here. I look around and everything feels strange and foreign. Then it passes.

Now I just feel like I don’t belong here. As many here know, this isn’t a suicidal feeling. I am grateful to be on this earth but I don’t connect with anyone anymore. I’ve met a great guy after realizing I have to love myself first and this came as a nice manifestation but even with him, I feel like I have no interest. I know what feeling depressed is like and it is similar with not wanting to do anything and sleeping but I feel like I have no purpose. I make a very good income and am grateful for what I have but I feel like I’m going through the motions. I’m looking for something more meaningful. I was told in the shower to write a book and even the title was given to me.

I can’t watch tv because it’s a low vibrational energy for me and makes feel even more negative. I feel like I’m aimlessly wandering and don’t have motivation to do anything. I’m glad I found this site because it hits the nail on the head explaining the illusion of the false self and those who still hold these beliefs. i cannot relate to anyone anymore and it’s a lonely feeling.

I just wanted to say thanks for writing this article. I do feel a bit better today after feeling very low for the last 5 days.

Glad you found it helpful. Cathy

Hi,

The more I experience of this, the more I feel like it is simply a gift, that there is no trying required whatsoever, it just sort of happens. Or maybe not without some initial effort but like it’s because we have tried everything we can think of to be “free” and when nothing works we realise we already are? I don’t know, but I have been having a lot of these symptoms. That feeling of being bipolar or going insane hit home hard…I’m flitting between a level of compassion I have never felt before and a level of rage I have never felt before. Part of me loves and forgives and wants to help other people because I see all of my previous folly in them, and I find myself just looking at people and laughing, imagining how hard they are working to present themselves in a certain way, and know that I did it/do it too and I needn’t have been so hard on myself for so long, but this other bit of me is furious at them for what feels like some sort of a betrayal. Of themselves, for rejecting something as amazing as what they really are? Or a betrayal of me, for being complicit in helping me lose myself. Or maybe its a projection? My false self becoming more extreme to combat the increasing presence of my True Self and feeling angry it’s losing control? But I’m taking it out on others. Will that just pass by itself? One more question, I have been sick for the last month, the same amount of time this stuff has really been taking off in me. I just can’t seem to shake it. I’ll be honest, I didn’t have a clue what you meant about us imagining diseases are real…they are, surely?? If it was all attachment to the false mind, how do babies yet to be stuck with the false self get sick? The rest of what you said sounds right, so please help me get my head round this point because I don’t get it. Thanks

Hi Ben,
In my experience and the history of the world, complete mental freedom doesn’t happen without letting go of your beliefs. It’s very rare. It’s not the same as enlightenment. Many people are feeling bipolar and sick right now, that means they need to let beliefs go, not put more in. The high and low is two sides of the false self.

It sounds like you’ve done a lot of New Age type stuff. The problem with such things is they create a false self that sounds true. Then you project everything you don’t like out. So it is a bad trick…makes us miserable. I have a post dated about March 1, 2016 (about a week ago) or so on the gatewaytogold Facebook page about the clone self. It’s epidemic right now because people have been putting tons of good beliefs in their mind with no letting go.

All diseases are emotions that have solidified due to retaining a belief that keeps you from being who you are. Babies get sick from parents’ projections mostly. But there isn’t an easy answer until the people involved start letting go of beliefs. As they do, they see exactly what beliefs are causing the problem.

Yes we are all free as true selves, but if we don’t feel that all the time, then we have to be know that is our false self. Hope that is helpful. It’s not something that has a short answer, but I think everything you are wanting to know is on my blogs and Facebook page. Love Cathy

Hi Cathy,

Thanks. I like the idea that illness is emotions solidified, that’s an interesting way of looking at it.

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Dear Sunny, I just allowed your comment to go through so people can have a good laugh. If you believe in spell casters then your life is going to get really bad. You see the belief in such lies means that people can also cast a bad spell on you too. It’s just a matter of time. When you play in the occult, you always get burned. So I suggest that you stop promoting this dick, and let your love go free. If your relationship is held together with a spell, it isn’t love at all. It’s possession, bondage…and that will turn into living hell. Cathy

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Ah yippee! Good try but I looked up your IP address since I have this thing called discrimination that told me you were a giant fake. I happen to know the Illuminati isn’t based in Nigeria. You might want to try this thing I teach so you can stop chasing big money and get a cure for that HIV you speak of. That might help you get that sexual intimacy you crave. BTW, Karma doesn’t exist either. Have a nice day. Cathy

That’s so creepy! Lately I haven’t felt anything I thought there was something majorly wrong. I sensed this huge invisible wall between me and everyone else . It’s hard to describe . I even accidentally referred to other people as “human’s ” instead of him,her,they or people”. ( without realizing it) .
You’re a human too my parents said to me .
Yeah but there is something really different somehow.
Everything lost it’s meaning , I lost any attraction or interest in people.I changed my life drastically before this , I thought I changed everything for the better . Getting exercise, doing things I wanted to do, eating better etc…I was very happy and cheerful. Then all of a sudden it’s like hitting a wall. I wracked my brain , why doesn’t anything satisfy me anymore.
It’s like a huge disconnection.It’s been about two weeks now. I thought I might get stuck like this apathetic and bleak.I believed this was a bad thing and having no one to talk about it makes it worse. But your article gives me hope because it sounds similar.

Yes it means that you have lost your interest in what I call the illusion. It’s not about humans and non-humans or spirit and mortal. It’s that some people live in a world of beliefs and others exit that world with a bit of effort. So you are wanting to exit. It means it is time to let go of all of your beliefs so you can live in freedom. You probably came here looking for how. I explain how on my other blog, http://nolabelsnolies.com. Also, I no longer write on these blogs, but I write a lot on my Facebook page, gatewaytogold. Come join us if you feel inspired to do so. You’ll find others there like you. Cathy

Hi Cathy, I’ve been reading your posts for the last 3 months on your websites and Facebook page, and have really enjoyed your posts. The process has not been easy but it’s been worth it. I can see what you mean about it being easier for us to understand the info much quicker than you did. It also has allowed me to be at ease with who I am as well.I actually came across your website by google searching for why a lot of school teachers was leaving the profession, and some how ended up clicking on your site. And I couldn’t stop reading since, it was definitely what I was looking for and is helping me get back to my true self. :)

Hi Jaide,
That’s the first time I’ve heard that search…although I wouldn’t blame teachers for leaving. How boring it must be to teach to such strict standards when you have this creative little minds before you. It would be hell for me. I’m glad you found the information helpful and useful. Yes, I would often struggle for months with just one of the tricks or traps that I expose. I could not see through it. But people often say that they felt confident letting those traps go because they saw that I did it and survived. So that’s a good thing. Thanks for writing. Love, Cathy

Indeed! And that’s why I couldn’t do it myself as well, along with the fact that I could see through the BS of the system. This has given me confidence as well, and it’s hard for me to even entertain my false self as the truth, and my mind has got a lot quieter. It’s still hard and confusing as i’m still new at this, but generally it’s easier, if that makes sense. It’s funny because last year I was doing some inspirational talks for personal development, and something inside of me (my true self) said to me that it wasn’t true. I was shocked, I didn’t want to believe it, but I started to move away from doing it, and found it hard to keep pushing the false masculine role. I was on the road of coaching and speaking, but going through this experience ignited my true interest in the arts and creativity. I put it aside as it wasn’t seen as serious enough. As I started to reflect on my childhood, I noted that I always liked playing around with the arts and making people laugh. I was involved in the arts as a hobby, but I took a break from performing as I felt their was something I was missing in it, I enjoyed it, but didn’t feel complete or want to play into the whole fame game and superficial stuff which can even come from doing it as a hobby. I was into the whole conscious music movement, but mainly from the bottom of the pyramid. So at some point I will take my stories to the top with room for people to let go from etc. I would also like to help other performers in different forms to aim for the top and following their true self as well. So I’m seeing where my true self will take me on this one. I’m getting all these different sparks lighting up in the background at the moment. Thank you! :)

For sure Jaide,
The creativity is a good sign. It would be awesome to take this in to the acting community as the great actors take on beliefs and let them go naturally. The ones that struggle can’t do that well. But get secure first. Mentoring is tricky and can pull you down because unlike coaching, a mentor doesn’t take the masculine role. You get to find every place you have a false belief. But the good side is it pushes you to let it all go. Love Cathy

Hi Cathy, yes, I’m in the process of possibly getting involved in a performance arts school, I’m not sure if it’s the one or one of many, as I’m keeping that false voice under control, letting the process take it’s nature pace, rather than going all out with that voice. I agree pertaining to the mentoring as well, my aim is to help with the creativity process and assist where I can, but not all out as a mentor at this stage. Thanks. :)

Oh that sounds like a lot of fun Jaide. So much creativity in those schools. Have fun. Cathy

By Barbara Floyd on May 6th, 2016 at 1:42 pm

Thanks! You have expressed what I have been experiencing for many years. Have been comforted and reminded; I’M NOT ALONE in this. Nastame and Love’ Barbara

Hi Cathy,

What a wonderful article and I’m so glad I came across it when I did. My awakening is very very new and a very tumultuous thing! As is my usual style of needing to learn things the hardest way possible, it was precipitated by a personal crisis. When the shit hit the fan, so to speak lol, it was very quickly apparent that there was nothing I could physically do to solve the problem, so I initially reached out to a law of attraction coach for help, feeling like that was my ONLY hope of saving us all (my kids and I). That’s when I discovered that everything is spiritual/vibrational (great news because it at least offered a glimmer of hope lol) and then from there the journey took a huge detour and I feel like I’ve been on the steepest uphill climb over the past few weeks. It’s been a bit of a roller-coaster to say the least. I’m often knocked over by fear of what will happen to us, depression hits, and my usual ability to tolerate anything and anyone has deserted me. But in the middle of it all, there are moments of total peace and complete confidence that we will be ok. This is, of course, when I manage to let go and trust. Then it’s wonderful! The relief from the fear is amazing on it’s own, but I even sometimes have excitement about what is just around the corner for us, and even gratitude for the situation because of how it has caused me to wake up and grow spiritually! If only I could maintain this! But soon enough I feel my vibration plunge again. I think I just have to keep facing my beliefs and letting them go, keep trusting, keep reaching for the thoughts that feel better? I’m terrified that if I can’t manage to do this enough, that I will block a timely solution to our problem from manifesting and we’ll be in an even worse situation. Do you have any advice on that? I need to check out your other site by the sounds of it! :)

Hi Tracey,
I’m glad you liked the article. I do want to be clear however. True letting go is not about law of attraction. It’s not a spiritual path; in fact, much of what you have to let go is all the beliefs you collected on any spiritual path. It is not about choosing a better feeling thought or accepting what is. It is about letting go of the beliefs that you hold about yourself, others, and people in general. It is actually going the opposite direction back to the truth of who you were originally, your True Self with a pure, clear mind. All the stuff on vibration comes from occult teachings. We change our vibration by what we think. But just suppressing the thoughts we don’t like and putting new thoughts in only affects the conscious mind. The beliefs we didn’t like are still in the subconscious. When you put a positive thought in your mind, you generate a negative thought as well. So at some point those negative arise, and that is why people feel like they are going up and down. I often feel frustrated that this confusion has occurred because I know how harmful it is and how following such things makes letting go even more difficult. But you don’t see this until you really let go for awhile; then you see what is true and helpful and what is false. So I just let people know that you don’t get freedom from all the spiritual teachings out there. You just get more beliefs. It is a choice, my blogs are about freedom. All the religions are about being good according to their beliefs. The self help movement is about winning in the illusion (the collective belief system). The New Age is about being spiritual or enlightened, which is not the same as freedom. Personal crises are a sign that it’s time to let go; not a time to put more beliefs in as they will only create temporary relief. If you reach for a better thought, you are not letting go. It’s fine to chose those things, but I work with plenty of people who wasted a lot of time and money on such things and watch their minds get more confused. So I hope that clarifies things for you. Love, Cathy

Hi Cathy,

Thank you for your reply, I don’t want to waste time and I certainly don’t need any more confusion! I think I understand what you’re saying. I also think the fact that I’m in the middle of (what feels like) a crisis situation is probably making things harder because I can see that I am desperately reaching for things to hold on to – which is the opposite of letting go. The thought of just simply letting go without feeling like I have any power to affect my situation is bloody terrifying. But if that power is only an illusion then it’s a waste of time anyway. I know attempts to use any physical power to solve this are useless but spiritual too? If letting go is the only thing I can possibly do, then it’s what I have to do. The hardest thing appears to be letting go of my need for a solution so I can stop being afraid, but I think it’s my need for a solution that is keeping me afraid? I really have no idea if I’m on the right track or not which is probably quite clear from my confused ramblings. When I let go, what comes in it’s place? Or what can I put in it’s place so that the fear and worry doesn’t just pop straight back up again?

It’s tricky, Tracey. Everyone feels that way. We are trained to follow excitement and look for solutions. We are trained to hold on. For me I just looked around. No one was living a peaceful life. Everyone fixed things with money. I just knew that was false. So you just do your best to let go and you eventually see that nothing bad ever happened from letting go. Bad things came from beliefs and holding on. Cathy

Hi Cathy again :)
it seems to be harder for me to be around people ,
people aren’t happy with me , im accually a little afraid that some thing might happen , like i just had a couple
purchase the unit above me , i live in a wood builbing
so when i heard him there , i knocked on his door
and invited him in to my place and i wanted to exsplain the noise situation , i had a info sheet
on a product called. floor muffler , i told him
that when he lays his harwood that i would pay
for this product underneath his hardwood ,, i got a call from the strata lady. saying that
i scared the fellow ( asian couple) and that
the building wasnt that bad , i was choked at the strata lady for contacting me , i mean christ people
are so codependent , its like if you dont make people
smile , they blame you.for it … honestly . every one in the bulding looks at me like im crazy :)
and i just went to a family get togeather last week end and i never felt so distant from my family as i did then , my mom judges me i feel (secretly) because
im not the daughter i always was ( i preaty much dedicated my life to her , in short she had me rapped
around her finger :) now i sort of see her as very selfish , i mean. its harsh .
kel

Hi Kelly,
Just keep letting go. Remember if you feel emotion what you are thinking is false. Sounds like your feeling emotion and thinking it means they are wrong. That’s not what I’m saying. So try to see that. It will help you. Love Cathy

so. me feeling the emotion of anger at the landlady
and my mother
means the thoughts im having about it are not true?

Well I can’t say for sure Kelly since I’m not talking to you and don’t know your exact thoughts. But you emotions relate to what you are thinking or believing. It’s a common misconception fueled by the new age and therapists that our emotions relate to others or what is happening in our life. That keeps people angry and stuck. Cathy

thanks. cathy
i guess ill just have to stay in the moment when emotion happens. and figure out whats going on

thx. kelly

Yes for sure Kelly. It’s a common habit to feel emotions and think. We should feel and see what arises. Cathy

 

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    The word belief has the word "lie" within it, hinting at its purpose.

    The word belief has the word lie within it because every belief is a lie. We lose ourselves when we confuse beliefs with the truth.

    As we let go of beliefs, we change our minds. As we change our minds, we change our relationships. As we change our relationships, we change our world.

    The most loving thing we can do is to drop our beliefs and judgments about others and set them free. When we free others, we also free ourselves.

    Positive thinking is not something that you need to do; your true, authentic Self IS positive. Find your Self and you will never have a negative thought again.

    Used properly, your emotions can lead you down the shortest path to your authentic Self. Denying or suppressing them is a ticket to hell.

    No matter how ornate your mask, your true Self is much more beautiful. Be Your Self!

    Many will attempt to fill you with their truth; but real and lasting transformation is about letting go of your beliefs and unveiling your OWN truth.

    Esoteric means hidden. Esoteric wisdom means hidden wisdom. Esoteric healing means to heal by finding the hidden cause.

    The ancient wisdom keepers lived their lives based on the law of cause and effect. They never fixed a problem because a problem is an effect of a mental cause. Today, we call the mental causes beliefs.

    In modern times we've become so good at projecting and suppressing our beliefs that we hide the causal beliefs even from ourselves.

    We often confuse our beliefs or opinions with the truth. This causes our problems to become chronic or permanent.

    If our mind believes something is true, it won't let it go. We first have to discriminate between true and false (beliefs). Then we can let the beliefs go. What remains is the truth.