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By Cathy Eck

The return trip to our True Self is crazy.  We move forward toward freedom; and then, we hit blockages, caused by the false self, that usually feel like we’ve gone backwards.  That’s normal.  We’re meeting every belief that we accepted as true in the past.  Stopping to clean the blockages can feel unpleasant and a waste of time; we just want to get to the destination.  But if we make the effort to release the beliefs that surface when we get stuck, we’ll have more True Self exposed for the rest of our journey.  And we’ll need that True Self in order to confront our deepest, darkest beliefs.

As we let go of old, false beliefs, we also transition from the common illusory physically-oriented perspective of life to our natural, mentally-oriented perspective.  In other words, we see life from the inside out, not the outside in.  We life from cause and effect; and we recognize that the cause is always mental — in fact, it’s in our own mind.  In the ancient world, this transition was called the second birth or the resurrection.  It was the goal of initiation.

The times that we feel free, calm, and clear are the times that we’re seeing life from this mental, True-Self perspective.  As we get comfortable in this perspective, we start to see the big picture of situations; and solutions appear to be everywhere.  People who remain caught in the physical, false-self perspective can look kind of dumb or blind to us now.  We can’t imagine why they don’t see what we see.  And this is where old relationships can become very tense and confusing.

When we feel heavy, exhausted, or sick, we’re stuck in the physical perspective (the illusion) and can’t see our way out.  There’s no exit to freedom from the illusory reality.  But if we let go and get to the mental perspective, we’ll see the exits again.

When hopelessly stuck in the illusion, we develop coping mechanisms.  As we’re exiting, we must let these coping mechanisms go.  Two of the biggest coping mechanisms, which our mind tells us we need to keep us safe, are being nice or good and being positive.  If we hold on to these coping mechanisms, we’ll block our exit to freedom without realizing it.  From the purified mental perspective, we’re always naturally good and positive.  So if we hold on to the good or positive mask, we can’t reveal the real True Self.  This tricks so many people that I had to do a post on it.  I assure you that letting go of your nice or positive self will be the best thing you’ll ever do.  But your false self probably won’t agree with me.

In my experience, letting go happens quickly when I can get to the pure mental perspective and call it what it really is.  I addressed some of this in a recent post.  Suddenly, the false self’s knowledge loses all appeal around that issue.  The authority figures or winners don’t look so great anymore.

The people that we’ve modeled to create these nice or positive masks had us fooled.  And as we let go, we’ll see them for who they really are.  Calling someone a business success is a lot different from calling them a thief.  But thief might be the honest label.  Calling someone a priest or guru is a lot different from calling them a sexual abuser; but if this is where they really are, we need to call that spade a spade to free ourselves.  You won’t let them go as an idol or teacher if you keep calling them a success or teacher of truth.

So let’s take a closer, more realistic, look at two of the most popular false belief systems or masks — the good person and the positive person.  Don’t beat yourself up if you’ve actually mastered them.  Just realize they’re false, and let them go.  We all did stupid things in the illusion; but remember, it never really existed.  It was just a dream.

The Good Person — a Physical Perspective of Life (False Self)

Janet has a strong physically-oriented perspective. She’s very careful about her words and actions; she always looks good to others in the illusion.  She sees herself as a person who has good morals and values.  She does what’s good and right according to her Christian religion and society.  This gives her a confident superiority over those who are not moral in her opinion.  From her point of view, she deserves the masculine role in most social situations.  She sees bad or evil everywhere, but assumes that’s just how people are.  She doesn’t realize that these evil ones only exist because she has split her mind into a dual perspective of good and evil; and she projects the evil half of that split outward.

Evil, to Janet, is pretty much anyone who doesn’t follow her belief system or would say that she’s not good.  She attends church regularly, gives to charity, and has a service-oriented job.  She follows the Bible literally.  She does what’s right according to the Bible and moral code she follows.  Here mind is made up and rigid.  Rarely does anyone argue with her.  It isn’t worth the effort.

Let’s go into Janet’s mind. How does Janet decide what she’ll do next?  Janet is not generally aware of her thoughts.  She’s outer directed or physically oriented most of the time.  She’s usually thinking about the impact her words or actions will have on others.  But she’s not thinking about their well-being.  She’s thinking about whether they’ll approve or disapprove of her.  She’s thinking about her rulebook.  Her reward of choice is approval from others, which she believes is approval from God.  If she actually thought about what she was doing, she’d realize she’s following authority (not God), but she trusts that those authority figures know God, even though they offer plenty of evidence that they don’t.  Poor Janet is being led to the fringes of hell while overly confident that she’s on the bus to heaven.

When faced with a choice, Janet accesses her memorized rulebook, that sits within her false self. She’s compiled this rulebook from all of her past authorities. She’s blindly obedient to her rulebook so she gets lots of approval for her ability to follow her rulebook without question. Rarely does anyone challenge her perspective because her rulebook fits into the social norms very nicely, and most people pay attention to what they see another do.  In this way, she doesn’t seem to have much outer conflict in her life.

But Janet stays busy.  If she stops doing and pays attention to her mind, she gets depressed.  She has lots of inner conflict.  So she doesn’t stop doing very often.  When she feels bad, she does something to help others.  She has to keep her false notion, that she’s a good person, fueled; or the beliefs that she’s a sinner will rise to the surface of her mind.  When those beliefs arise, the emotions come with them.  Janet hates emotions.

To Janet, emotions are something unwanted unless they relate to something she wants.  Then she follows them with excitement.  God answered her prayer because she was good — or so she thinks.  When Janet does feel emotion, she generally finds something or someone outside of herself to blame for those emotions.  Usually, someone isn’t obeying her rulebook; then she inflicts punishment or judgement on them.  She does exactly what her God does.  This is the essence of the false masculine aspect of our mind.  It wants to be seen as good or right.  If something challenges it, it says or does something to defend it’s position.  It never admits that it’s wrong.  And it works very hard to keep the opposing point of view (which naturally occurs when we split our mind) projected out or suppressed within.  Suppressing within turns the good person into a martyr, stuck in the feminine role.  Expressing or projecting the bad or evil out creates enemies or slaves.

Janet’s friend needs a ride to town.  Janet’s rulebook says, “Yes.  Always say yes to requests.  Be nice.” She doesn’t want to do it, but her mind kicks in and says, “Janet you’re so good.”  She doesn’t complain while driving her friend; although later on she vents about it to her other “good” friend.  “People take advantage of good people,” they conclude.

Another friend whines on the phone for two hours just when Janet wanted to take a long, relaxing bath. But she doesn’t say a word.  It’s selfish to take time for yourself.  She listens to every whiney minute of the conversation, and comforts her friend with kind words and a prayer.  It’s what friends do.  Afterwords, she’s proud of her behavior, and she feels good. She helped a friend; she was of service.   As long as Janet does what her rulebook says is good, she won’t notice her emotional conflict inside.  It will sit below the surface of her conscious mind.  If it does arise, she’ll label it Satan or a psychological problem for which she’ll solicit sympathy.  She can’t help it; it’s her burden to carry.  She’s sacrificing her joy for others.  She often wonders things like:  “Why me?”  “When is it my turn?”  “What did I do to deserve this?”  She believes that God expects us to share a burden and life is hard.  But she’s good; and she deserves to be rewarded.  She forgets that her rulebook says you get rewarded in heaven, not earth.

Look at Janet’s intellectual-emotional relationship. She does something acceptable from her rulebook, thinks good things about herself for following the rulebook, then she feels calm.  She looks like a True Self, but she avoids the possibility of not obeying the rules, which would create an emotional storm.

Who is Janet’s God?  Well, she’d say Jesus or the God of the Old Testament.  But that’s not really true when you look closely.  Janet’s God is Everyone, the status quo.  She obeys what people in the illusion have told her is good and moral. She thinks she’s obeying God, but she’s not.  She’s terrified of being judged; and she judges nearly everyone. Her reward for good behavior is the fulfillment of a desire or a feeling of calmness, but it’s always short-lived.  At any moment, she could be called to duty. If she doesn’t obey her rulebook, she loses her calmness.  She constantly imposes her rigid beliefs on others because she thinks she needs to help them get to heaven too.

Janet finally gets to relax in that warm bath. She has an idea to sew a new dress. She’s inspired to pull out the sewing machine and get to work, but she feels guilty. She should really call her mom, do the dishes, or work on her briefing for tomorrow’s big meeting. The guilt stops her action; she believes her rulebook (God) has stopped her from wasting time and money. She thanks her God.  Enough time wasted, she gets out of the bath.  She isn’t enjoying her idle mind because it’s the devil’s workshop.  Desires for her are temptations.

If Janet’s friends get something Janet wants, Janet feels jealous or envious.  She’s no different than her God.  They’ve taken what she feels should rightfully belong to her.  She’s the queen of good in her mind; she deserves to have it all.  She will when she gets to heaven.

The truth about Janet is that she’s not good from the mental perspective.  She’s only good from the physical perspective so her desire to be moral and good, according to her religion and society, keeps her from letting go and finding God within.  She judges and condemns others, not realizing that she’s condemning her own projection.  She rarely, if ever forgives.  Or if she says she forgives, she never forgets.  In her mind, others are flawed beyond repair.  She imagines a judgment day where God welcomes her and tells her how good she was in life.  But at death, the false self is let go.  My guess is that the judgment day is where we get all our projections back.  We let them go (since we hold the false self in our body), and see the True Self, that white light or heaven that we’ve imagined we’ll see.  I say this because as you walk this path of initiation, this is exactly what happens regarding the places that we saw ourselves as good.  Our projections come back, and we have to let them go.  Then we get a glimpse of our True Self.  On the other hand, if we’ve played our fair share of bad guys, the projections of other people leave our mind; and we realize we never did anything wrong.  It’s divine justice at it’s best.

The Positive Person

Physical Perspective Plus Mental Attachments  (Another False Self)

Sandra is a positive thinker extraordinaire. She doesn’t work as physically hard as Janet, but she’s always correcting her mind — she mentally works very hard. Sandra gets the same idea for a dress in the bath, and she feels emotions too for the same reason.  All her shoulds arise in her mind.  She’s also been trained that her True Self is evil and tempts her.  But she ignores that because she labels the emotion she feels as excitement; her mind is telling her to go for it and create a million dollar idea.  The whole world will be wearing Sandra’s dress.  Sandra’s mindset depends on labeling her emotions as good when they are really telling her to look inside and let go.  Sandra thinks she’s following her passion; but she’s really following her false self.

Sandra’s friend calls to whine, and she listens for a minute or two and then interrupts her.  She preaches to her about being more positive. Sandra claims the masculine role in most situations by being positive and projecting the opposite on to others who she happily fixes.  She’s like a mental wall; no one can convince her that she isn’t glass half full all the time.  She loves to give advice; and has an answer for everything — a way of fixing the effect.  Sandra has incredible knowledge.  She has a cure for every curse.  She works in a library and takes great pride in being able to direct people to an answer to their problems.  She views herself as a spiritual teacher.

Sandra’s children all take drugs to calm their emotions and concentrate in school. She wishes they’d do something more natural.  Her husband drinks a lot. That’s his problem.  Her family would be fine if they’d just get positive and take her advice.  How did she get this negative family?

Who is Sandra’s God? Sandra has the same God as Janet with the same rulebook, except Sandra has swung to the opposite of the traditional religious God.  Janet ignores her emotions; Sandra follows them.  Sandra doesn’t want to wait until death for rewards.  She’s not interested in being a martyr.  So she flips the religious belief system on its head.  Now emotions are not pointing to her sinful nature or lack of worth, they’re taking her to great ideas and abundance.  What Janet and Sandra don’t realize is that the false God doesn’t care if we follow it to rich or poor, or to good or evil; it just cares that we follow it.

Often people like Sandra were once religious, but they couldn’t stand the negativity of the false Old Testament God.  So now their God is positive, and he wants everyone to have it all; the proof in this God is that he’s the God of successful people.  Oddly, even modern Christian religions are now aligned with this positive-thinking mindset — a new and improved version of the false God.  The presumption is that God is rewarding successful people.  So if she thinks like them, she’ll be rewarded too.  After all these successful people often thank God for their success.  But she doesn’t call God her concierge even though that is what he is; she calls this force Universe.  Sandra’s always looking for signs and synchronicity to show she’s lined up and ready to receive.  While Janet is very focused on giving; Sandra is focused on receiving.  When they hang out together, Janet gives and Sandra receives; and they both go away thinking it was a great day.  Two halves do make a whole; but two wholes are even greater than the sum of their parts.  Neither Janet or Sandra get to experience that.

Sandra talks often about oneness; but Sandra is very separate from everyone and feels incredibly lonely if she’s not with other people.  That’s because she needs people to give to her.  Nothing happens unless she’s with people.  But she still labels her source the Universe.

This positive point of view originated with people who belonged to secret occult societies.  They were the opposite of the Catholic church, which is why they were the enemy of the Catholic church.  Think about the popular movie and book, “Angels and Demons.”  The good or religious were opposed to the bad or Illuminati.  Those who are labeled Illuminati usually have a positive, receiving sort of persona.  They thought they were illuminated because their God was good.  Thus, business leaders, government leaders, movie and sports stars, and those who control media and communication are all labeled Illuminati members.  They are very good at receiving from others, and they end up with great wealth and power.  They depend on the giving persona of the religious good and those who want to be like them to feed their hungry bank accounts.  We tend to send our money toward those we want to be like!  So they don’t have to work very hard to keep getting richer and more famous.

Sandra’s aware that words have power and is obsessive about monitoring her conscious words to sound positive.  She ignores the chatter that arises from her unconscious mind.  She’s believes that she’s probably picking up the negative thoughts of others.  “They’re all so negative,” she thinks all the time.  In fact, Sandra says that she’s highly sensitive; and that’s a positive term for being an emotional wreck with a positive mask. It’s not her fault that everyone is so damn negative.  “Others don’t feel like her,” she thinks.  (This is yet another trap caused by not understanding the role of emotions in our life.)  She believes that this emotional state is caused by the opening of her spiritual centers.  It isn’t.  It’s the direct result of using her emotions backwards.  Her positive thoughts are false, she doesn’t believe them; and those negative thoughts are beliefs that she holds as unwanted but true in her split mind.  She’s generating more and more emotion all the time with every dual thought.

One could say that Sandra watches her mind.  But she doesn’t allow her mind to speak or unravel. She doesn’t discriminate.  She watches what she puts in her mind; and monitors it excessively to make sure it’s positive.  If she has a negative thought, she ignores it or doesn’t say it out loud; but she does believe it.  In fact, she fears negative thoughts.  After all, if our thoughts create, one has to be very careful what they think.  Sandra looks mentally oriented to the outside world; but she isn’t.  Her desires are all physical; and the mental willfulness she exerts is just a substitute for physical exertion.

Let’s look at Sandra’s mind.  Sandra has allowed desires back into her mind.  If she desires it, she feels she deserves to have it.  She no longer views desires as temptations like Janet.  That’s a relief.  But her mind would naturally say that she could not get such desires so she leaps over those thoughts with affirmations.  Her beliefs don’t feel so good, but she doesn’t know how to let those old beliefs go, so she puts ice cream on her mental manure and affirms her way to her desire.  She immediately feels better when she visualizes the desire or affirms that it’s already hers.  She blocks out any thought that she doesn’t like and any person who brings up her reality.  In truth, reality is actually what Sandra believes, but she puts reality behind a wall; and she will get very angry if you try to knock that wall down or point out that the wall is staring you in the face.  Sandra is still unaware of how she’s creating her life experience.  She focuses on the part of her false mind that rests in front of her wall.  She hopes that the damn can hold back the flood that would pour out if the wall collapsed and all of her negative projections were returned to her at once.

Sandra’s friends find her unrealistic and annoying.  She doesn’t have her feet on the ground.  But they can’t say much.  She’s always saying things that sound true.  She’s got a positive quote for everything.  She starts her day with intentions and affirmations.  But they generate emotion when she says them (excitement) because she doesn’t really believe them.  Friends and family find themselves playing the devil’s advocate around her or just being negative and wondering why.  They don’t like themselves in her presence.  Most of Sandra’s words seem to be spoken for the purpose of convincing herself of her own illusion of grandeur and projecting her reality on her negative friends and family.  She’s usually preaching more than teaching.

The truth about Sandra is that she’s not positive; she doesn’t have a high vibration.  If she gets quiet, she has lots of negative thoughts, but she blames them on others.  Just like Janet, Sandra is stuck in hell.  But she’s sure she’s on the tram to heaven.

Pure Mental Perspective  (Moving Toward the True Self)

This diagram shows Janet on the left; Sandra is on the right.  Now we’ll meet Pam who is working her way to the top of the center.

Pam is a mess according to Sandra and Janet. She never does anything but garden. She has little money, and refuses to get a decent job. She finds odd jobs just in time to pay her mortgage each month but has nothing saved for a rainy day.  According to her friends, she’s not contributing to society; she has no purpose.  Pam doesn’t complain so they assume she’s in denial.  Sandra and Janet are always trying to motivate and inspire Pam.  They don’t realize that they’re trying to fix their own reflection.  They don’t see Pam because Pam isn’t their opposite; and they can only see their opposite — their projection.

Pam is just being Pam as best she can.  She doesn’t say she’s spiritual, good, or positive.  She faces the reality of her mind each day; and she discriminates as best she can.

Pam is really content in that garden. As she pulls out physical weeds, she’s weeding her mind. She’s letting go more and more each day. Her mind is getting quieter, and she’s never felt so wonderful.  She’s honoring her True Self; her inspiration takes her to the garden to do her inner and outer weeding every day.  She trusts this inner motivation.  She rarely follows outer motivation anymore.

When a friend calls to whine, she politely says she’s busy gardening. “She’s kind of rude,” they think.  “Seems to be antisocial.”  But Pam is coming to love her mind more and more each day; and superficial conversations or venting just don’t seem practical anymore.  She knows it’s not good for the friend either; so she chooses what is truly win-win even if she looks bad in her friend’s eyes for the time being.

Pam’s God is her own True Self, the Creator God. She doesn’t care what people think; they aren’t her God nor should they be. No human should be our God.  She’s following her inspiration with calmness and peace.  She’s internally directed.  She has no rulebook; and her friends think there’s something wrong with that.  They often think false judgments about her.  Pam rarely believes their projections anymore; and so she doesn’t accept them.  The emotions boomerang back to Janet and Sandra; they feel their own emotions, which they quickly blame on Pam.  But Pam understands how these things work; and she just allows them to think what they think.  Her measure of success is her own mind, not what they think of her.

Pam doesn’t give approval or disapproval for their good deeds and positive thinking; she realizes they’re false.  But she doesn’t impose her way of thinking on them.  This bothers Janet and Sandra; everyone else looks up to them and thinks they are utterly amazing.

Pam’s not impressed by their success or their superiority complexes.  She doesn’t want to play those games anymore.  She doesn’t care to be superior or inferior.  She knows that everyone has a True Self, and they’re all equal — although they express in unique ways.  Pam is perfecting her mind.  She doesn’t look like she is doing very much; but when she does do something, it’s creative and beautiful.  Pam isn’t results oriented.  She enjoys whatever she’s doing because she does what’s inspired.  She doesn’t avoid her mind, she allows it to speak.  Then she discriminates.  She doesn’t change her thoughts to something better.  She doesn’t focus on manifesting her desires, but she also doesn’t deny them.  She knows she’s moving toward them; and she’s enjoying every moment of that journey.

Pam just goes about her business.  One day, she’ll become a living example of right living and right thinking.  It will all work out in the end.

Pam’s life isn’t perfect yet; she’s got more to go.  She’s not really sure how much more.  She just works on whatever arises each day. Sometimes it’s personal; and sometimes it’s about someone else, maybe even someone she doesn’t know — like someone she saw on the news that seemed to be in trouble.  She acknowledges where she is (reality) and doesn’t hide her beliefs.  But she acknowledges them as beliefs and lets them go.  She uses her emotions as designed to help her find the causal beliefs to let go.  She’s come to love her emotions; she realizes she could not get free without her emotional Goddess within.

Her friends like to compare their material success with her lack of material success. But Pam knows she’s going the right way. Her abundance will come, and her mind is her favorite hangout. She doesn’t need much money these days. And she realizes that she wants what rightfully belongs to her based on the quality of her mind.  She wants her pure inner to create a pure and beautiful outer world.  Her garden is amazing. It reflects her increasingly pure mind.

Pam keeps her own score.  If she lets go each day, it’s a good day.  She’s no longer looking for outer approval; and that feels wonderful.  When something she desires comes to her, she’s happy; but it isn’t exciting or miraculous.  It’s just the natural outcome of her inner work.

Oddly, Pam got inspired to sew a dress last night in the tub.  She got out and did it.  She was wearing that cute dress today but didn’t even think to tell her friends that she made it.  The creating was reward in and of itself.  They didn’t notice her dress; it wasn’t in style.  It was simply a pure expression of Pam.  It was perfect for her.

Pam has found the connection with God that her friends think they’ll find by being good or positive. Pam no longer works hard — mentally or physically.  She’s returning to the inner-focused Tree of Life where hard work never existed. Eden is the mentally-oriented perspective of life; and Pam is moving closer to the gateway to Eden with each belief she lets go.

Pam is living her judgment day now.  Each day, she discriminates and she lets go; and the world she sees becomes a better place to live in.  She understands the illusion and feels okay with it.  It is a choice, a game, a way of playing on planet earth.  And she can choose not to play.  She’d rather create.  She will get to heaven in life, which means that death no longer has a purpose.  It’s just part of the illusion.  She’s not really sure what that means, but she knows it will be good.  Letting go has never taken her to anything unwanted or bad.

Letting go of Both False Perspectives

Many of us started off as a resident in Janet’s world.  We got a lot of approval if we were obedient when we were young. We were taught to be good, and we were also taught that we were born bad or sinful.  If we weren’t good, we got punished.  Our authorities were tasked with the job of making us good.

Then for some reason, we started to realize that thoughts had value.  We got introduced to the idea of positive thinking or creating our future.  That sounded better than what we had going on, so we got on board that train for a while.  We were becoming aware of our mind, and it wasn’t naturally positive.  But we willed it into submission with positive thinking and visualization.  We went from hard physical work in Janet’s world to hard mental work in Sandra’s world.  This wasn’t what we signed up for either.

As we put all those positive thoughts in our mind, we generated lots of emotion.  Eventually, it couldn’t all be converted to excitement.  We started to notice that we had a lot of fear and anger — too much to cover up.  We wanted to get rid of our emotions so we went to emotional release techniques.  That got our emotions under control and perhaps improved our health some, but it was more hard work.  We’d not taken out the causal beliefs so emotions arose every time we were around those evil or negative people, which were now pretty much unavoidable.  So the only answer was to take our positive ass to an island or cave so we could hide from the world.  “We’re just too different,” we thought.  “We don’t fit into this harsh world.”  We had no idea that we were the creators of the harsh world we saw and experienced.  We weren’t too different at all; we were too the same.  We were victims of our own false mental creating that we learned from card-carrying members of the illusion.  We’d been riding the train to hell and thought we were on the train to heaven.  Oh fuck!

So eventually, we realized that it was all wrong.  All that time, we were just making our false self bigger.  The pool of evil or negativity was growing below the surface like an iceberg.  We, like the Titanic, hoped to avoid a collision, but probably would not.  It’s scary at this point until we learn to let go.  Then we see it was all a big giant cartoon, an illusion.  And we started working backwards to get to where we started.

We had to bite that bullet and just start taking the beliefs out as best we could, like Pam.  We had to admit that we weren’t positive and neither were all those other people who pretended to be positive.  And all those gooders weren’t good either.  We’re all in this same sinking ship.  But we have to save ourselves first, and that ain’t easy.

That’s probably where you are now if you’re reading this blog.  You might look a bit like Pam.  You aren’t motivated to hold that big corporate job.  You don’t want to do for others anymore.  You find yourself just wanting to let go or do simple activities that support letting go.  And in this place, we can become very aware of why we covered up our True Self in the first place.  We once again feel the judgment that the world has about being our Self.  We actually realize that most people hate their True Selves.  They hate the part of them is naturally good and positive; and they love the part of them that is fake positive and good.  Now think about that for a moment.  What a mess!

It was only possible because we were given the wrong starting point in this illusory maze.  We were told we were born sinful.  We were told we were born with bad inside.  We were told that true goodness was lost when we popped out of our mother’s womb.  So we never looked back because we couldn’t see the starting point.  It was all a lie.

I call this the Lucifer moment.  Lucifer was the brightest star in the sky, but he wouldn’t obey the Lord God (the false God); so he was considered evil.  That’s the story of our OWN True Self.  It’s the part of us that thankfully, would not obey or serve the false master.  And it’s still shining bright if we just remove the blanket of beliefs that we covered it with.  Lucifer was related to the planet Venus (the five-pointed star).  Venus was once the planet of unconditional love (one point up), but it was relabeled by astrologers as the planet of conditional or romantic love (false love related to two points up).  Unconditional love became evil since it exposes the false self and even destroys it if we have enough true power revealed.  Conditional love became the accepted notion of love, which was very physically oriented; it’s what we call love today.  Thus we fall in love.  Yep we say it all the time as if it’s a good thing when it’s actually our demise.  Fortunately, we don’t have to stay that way.  But we first have to get honest and recognize our error in thinking.  We have to admit that our love isn’t unconditional and let go until it is.

Like Pam we start to once again remember that calm, cool place of the True Self.  We get some creative ideas, and they no longer look like temptations or the next million dollar idea.  They just look like something that would be enjoyable to do.  We start to really enjoy the journey out; and we find that we start to become patient and trusting.  We have that faith that others claim to possess without trying.  We’re remembering who we truly are.  We know we won’t stop; going back feels appalling.  So we keep walking forward until we reach that Gateway To Gold; and the door is already open.  They’ve been waiting for us.